Cupcake Obsession

I think these couple of days, i'm having a cupcake obsession. I've been craving for a carrot cupcake from the cupcake shop in Pitt St. Thanks to D, my carrot cupcake craving was greatly satisfied and delivered straight to my door !!! Thanks Deeeeeeee =)

These 4 yummy cupcake consist of : CARROT CUPCAKE, cookies & cream, mint & chocolate and lemon meringe cupcake ~ mmhh... yum yum =)

My next task : To make a banana choc chip cupcake !!

Lucky Chickadee

I have to admit, I am quite lucky in alot of senses. I have a wonderful, loving, caring family who supports me through ups and downs - of course, we have our fair share of arguments and disagreements, but hey, at the end of the day, we're still happily laughing when talking back about it. I have many good friends. Friends that support me through the roughest times of my life, through the sadest times and also here to share the happy dilly times!

5 days more to go till I go through a new adventure. As much as I know my family & friends will miss me, i know they are supporting me 110% all the way !!

Last night my mummy cooked me a nice home cooked dinner =) My favourite coconut chicken soup and lots of yummy tasty dishes !!

Click here to see some pics from Dida's camera

Mhhmm..my brothers home baked yummy blueberry cheesecake !!

A Happy Day ~

Today I spent a wonderful, relaxing and memoriable day with my dearest chickies. Met up for lunch @ the fish markets. Got a really nice table right next to the water.

Under the clear blue skys and with the not so hot sun, it was the perfect day. (emm.. besides the wind and the small incident.. hehe...sorry becs !! ) Amongst the 5 of us, there was plenty of chats from unpersonal to mega personal, lots of laughters and minor tears (caused by a meanie - and you know who you are !! ) hehee =)

We had kilpatrick and mornay oysters, fish & chips, blue eye cod, deep fried prawns, skewered prawns, calamari, salt & pepper squid, yummy jap seaweed, salmon & fresh oysters =)



Then afternoon tea at intercon, and of course, we couldn't resist.... a blackforest cake, a marscapone strawberry cake and a lemon lime & bitters cake ~



Thank you chickies for coming & making this day so enjoyable & memoriable ~
I'm going to miss you all soooo much ~ Hope you all had a fab day tooooo !!!
Love you all soo sooo much !!!

Dida's Tiramisu

This is Dida's Tiramisu. I was special enough to be the second person besides herself to taste test this wonderful cake !! hehe... =) mmh.... Dida.. your waiting for comments right? heheehee
HONEST COMMENT: Abit dry on the inside..mm.. the marscapone cheese abit yellow..abit lumpy...possibly abit more coffeee ? keep trying la ~
GENERAL COMMENT: dou ok ar..edible!! oh.. most importantly.. I didn't get stomache poisoning last night! hehehe

9 days left...

No No No.. I am seriously not counting down. No... really, im not counting down. Why is time going by so quickly ? These couple of days have been used to have catch up lunches, will do promises, family and friend dinners. After Jennifer's Wedding on the 21st Jan, one of the hottest Sunday's ever, I feel I haven't stopped.

Here are my adventures during the last couple of days:

Cupcakes on Pitt Street : Didas is the one with this green icing ~ mines a carrot cupcake .. soooo yummy =P



Australia Day - After dropping Alice & Ah Bec at the airport, we drove past this Cupcake shop in Neutral Bay... unfortunately it was closed .. but we still managed to take a few pics from the outside!



A yummy breakfast lunch at Bills ~



Korean Restaurant in Chinatown that makes yummy cheese rock rice!



mmhh...... alot of things i'll be missing.... =)

18 days left...

18 days left while i'm in Sydney. I should utilise my time efficiently. Spending time with my closest friends, spending time with my family, taking many many snaps to remember my last days in Sydney before I take the leap to HK. Just thinking about it makes me sad. Definitely excited, but also worried how I would adapt there. Had a family dinner tonight with my Aunt and cousins. My cousin gave me a journal. Very useful...i'll be sure to use it and detail every bit of this experience. Took a very happy snap with my mum & ashleigh =)

lasting memories snaps (i)

20 more days to go before I start a new chapter in my life. The decision was made on 13/1/06 and i will be heading to HK in 20 days!!

My car that i'm going to misss.... =(

my favourite ...

went to Sam's cafe and had this durian dessert... so yummy ~

mmh... what is this special date? hehee ~ coincidently his rego belongs to my best friend K...

A big big deep fried ice cream and durian dessert ~

15/16

It's when I have to make an important decision, that I wish that YOU were here to guide me in the right direction. Whether I should take this chance or not take it.

I was pretty sure that I wanted to go ahead and make this move, but today, after shedding tears while talking to my best friend K, when I finished talking to her, in the late afternoon and when I was taking a shower tonight, reading a friendster testimonial, and whilst I am typing this, I question myself, is this the right thing to do. I know I want to, I know I want to take this opportunity, I know it will work out. I know this is a great opportunity I don't want to miss.

I have asked many opinions from my mum, my brother, my relatives and my special friends. I've gotten too much advice thats made my mind run wild. I just want some quite time to think about what I want and whether this is the best thing for me.

I can already see my emotional fluctuations. This morning, i was excited, ready to pack my bags, tonight i dont want to leave. I want to stay here with my family and friends. In this house. In my room. With my car. With my furniture. I can already feel my emotions go up and down. I know I will be like this for the next couple of months. I have alot of questions that I have running in my head and the more ppl talk about this, the more pressure I feel I have. I feel like i'm strangled. I feel like I can't breathe. I do understand that it's because you all care for me and wish the best for me...but I think now, I need my space. I think that's what I need now.

Personal Ethics

It's not often i get told that I am immature, always depressed, cancels on important meetings, acting stupidly, rude, selfish. No doubt, it hurts, it really hurts to be told i'm something i have never thought myself to be. Nor has my best friend or any of my closest friends ever told me I am this.

I must admit, I can or may have carried some of the above in the past, or presently, but I don't believe it's to the extent that someone needs to SMS it to me to tell me that. I think everyone has certain levels of immaturity, sadness, happiness, or being rude and selfish and its to what extent your friends and family can or cannot accept. It also depends on who the opponent is.

In many experiences I have had with certain friends, i've found that the ones that tell you "hey, you look really tired and drawn out today.." are the people who are feeling tired and drawn out themselves. The people that ask you "How come you can be so casual to work?" when you are wearing a smart Cue suit are the ones who are wearing a 3/4 length pants with a casual top to work.

I wonder if this is the same reason for the SMS as what i have experienced before?

I try my very best to maintain personal ethics. Having my own set of values and principles that I live by. Reading a couple of Ethical Decison Making Models, Rion (1991), Langenderfer & Rockness (1990), Guy (1990), Hall (1993) and Hodgson (1992), I realised that my own values and principles are based on a combination of Guy (1990) and Hodgson (1992).
This being caring, honest, respecting others, integrity, fairness, loyalty, keeping promise and pursuit of excellence.
I do need to repeat myself, i do try my very best to maintain this, but like everyone else, i'm just another human being and there are always times where i might fail. But does times like that need to be told to me like the way it did?

Do i need to explain myself ? No.. i've been told, i dont need to explain myself and if thats what they think, let it be. Who cares!

the lion

me being a Leo, has convinced me to buy this:

hopefully, this will be my one & only ~

Happy 2007 !!

Here's to wish all my family and friends out there a very happy & healthy and successful 2007!!
I hope that all your dreams and wishes come true !
Always smile and be happy ~ May 2007 be better than 2006!

On another note: a VERY BIG THANK YOU to K for inviting us and sharing her house with us. A beautiful & uncrowded view of the fireworks from her lounge room! Driving back from K's at 5.45am in the morning, C & I saw the first sunrise in 2007 and a beautiful rainbow to compliment it ~ Because both our camera batteries had died on us, we were lucky enough to turn our camera on and take one, and only one shot - Here's a car shot to prove it !! hehe =)

Reflections

Christmas, New Years and upcoming birthdays are happy and joyful things to celebrate. Plenty of smiles and lots of laughter. Lots of hugs and kisses from my closest friends. This is the time I feel fake. Lots of smiling, laughter, cheer and jokes covering the bottom of my heart which is twisted with pain and cry. Every now and again, the brick on my heart will drop. But when i'm back in my own all four walls, I feel the heaviness again. Everytime, this time of the year approaches, sleepless nights prop up again. Thoughts and clear pictures run around my head of an event that happened 4 yrs ago. One event that i will never forget. I remember the first year, I said to my best friend " I can't believe one year has already gone by, it just felt like yesterday..." Year by year, I say the same thing. And without fail, i'm saying the same thing this year. Images are 110% clear. Relatives and friends that came and left I cannot forget. The weather, temperature, the breakfasts, the dinners, the smell, the atmosphere, the words being said and the feeling I cannot forget. The feeling of sadness in my heart will always be there, but this is the time that the images are most clear, that i am the most emotional. I hope to never forget, I hope my memory does not fade. But I also hope that one year, this time, i can honestly and openly say that I am happy and truely happy. I don't know when and how long this is going to be, i don't wish it happen straight away, but maybe, just maybe one day...

a stressful morning

I just don't understand why some people just like leaving things till the very last minute. I must admit, i'm not a very organised person myself, but I try to have myself organised as much as I can.

Knowing that your flight departed at Sydney International Airport to go to HK at 3pm, knowing travelling time was at least 1 hr from your house to the airport & your flight could be full, would you:

1. Organise cleaners to come to your house at 9am in the morning?
2. Go and get money out of the bank?
3. Pack 10kgs abalone into freeze proof boxes.
4. Go and pick up your new glasses - which you could of picked up when you got back because you were only going to be away for 10 days and not to mention, you had a pair that was perfectly alright to use.
5. Organise me to go for an eye test - which somehow couldn't of been done any other day ?
6. Go to the fruit shop and buy white peaches as a gift - not to mention, whether the gift was going to white peaches or honey coated nuts was still not decided..AND if organise for the white peaches to fit in a box & strap the box so it can be carried easily.
7. Go into Woolies to get oats - which you knew you had to get a month ago..
And not to mention.... you had a day off on Monday - where you could of done all these things ! I perfectly understand that some of those points above could only be done in the morning, but clearly, alot of those points could have been done at another time, if not earlier.

As you can see, I had a pretty stressful morning. I met up with my 2 beautiful girlfriends for a nice "Espresso & Milk Chocolate Frappe" only bcos they both happened to be sick at around Midday heheee =) Then looking at those fresh ripe red strawberrys & milk chocolate on the table made me forget everything that happened in the morning * not to mention B got me a bunch of beautiful sweet smelling pink roses!

Thanks B for the roses =) They're beautiful, just like you!

missing you

I bumped into some friends I haven't seen in quite some time on the weekend. It brought back memories of the times we used to spend together. The gatherings that we had, the dinners we use to have and those nights we use to just hang out and watch dvds. We kinda lost the contact and the friendship due to some little misunderstandings.
It's a shame, but what can be done?

some happy snaps

Baby Sarah with Tams & Jac

BBQ at Dida's place

bored....

Here i am, sitting in the office - megarly bored.. reading blogs, surfing the net, writing emails, checking out friendster, looking at old pics ... doing everything BUT what I should be doing. Twiddling my thumbs and realising that theres only about 5 more weeks till the end of the year.

Then I think back and wonder what has happened this year.

1. I've met alot of new great friends and formed great friendship.
2. I've finished my DFP.
3. I've enrolled in my CFP.
4. Taken up 2 new sports this year and loving it !! ( indoor rock climbing & badminton )
5. Improved my families relationship.
6. Have had my patience, understanding level and analysing skills tested.
7. Realised that I still have a barrier (or a wall) that i haven't been able to cross yet. I think with time, i'll be able to cross it.....

ooh... and how can i forget, my new car !! hehehee


mmh... Just 7? There must be more... but I cant think of it from the top of my head right now. Had a really late night last night catching up with my high school friends, as two dear friends J & J had come back from overseas. J1 to visit and J2 - i thought was coming back permanently but only to find out last night that he was going to work in HK in March next yr.

Funny enough, I was only talking to another friend C on the weekend discussing the possibilities of relocating to HK next year. mmh.. just a thought... =)

the red carpet

I went to Borats movie premiere last night with D in the George St Cinemas. For the first time in my life, walked down the red carpet entrance into the cinemas! There was loads of people on both sides of the red carpet, and about 6 cameras facing us - but of cos, not taking pictures of us! hahhaa =)

I was pretty nervous simply because there was soooo many people looking at us! But, we both gave huge smiles, lifted our heads up and walked right down to the end !
Definitely a great experience and a fantastic night ! Thanks D!

Borat is an excellent movie. Laughs right from the beginning to the end. Definitely worth watching !!!

Neverending concerns

What do you do when one and two doesn't listen ?

How do you let down your fustrations when you don't agree on what they are doing? You've expressed your concern, but they still think they are right. What if its affecting their health and lifestyle? What if it can harm them?

You really really want to help, but you can't.

The funny thing is, one agrees with me and doesnt agree on what two is doing. Two agrees with me and doesnt agree on what one is doing.

But they both don't look at themselves to see if they have made the right decisions on what THEY should be doing and they both don't discuss with each other what they are doing. So how is the middle person, me, suppose to help?

i tried

The first time i've donated blood. Sitting in the Red Cross building in Chatswood - it suprised me. I was imagining a unclean place but it was new and spotless. Gave me a very good first impression. Ive always had doubts about donating blood..heard so many bad/unpleasant stories but i took up the courage & went today.

We booked in for 2.30pm with 2 of my other collegues, we sat and waiting for 40 mins. They went through a questionnaire, asking ALOT of questions about health, holidays etc. Then they did a haemoglobin test. I was low. But the nurse said, maybe its just today, so we still decided to go ahead with taking the blood.

They sat me on a nice comfy chair that swang backwards, moved up, leg rest. Mega comfy. Cleaned the area ... and stuck the needle in my arm!! Painful - yes.. it hurt and stung a bit. I needed to donate 470ml's of blood - but it stopped at 178ml's.
As instructed, i was pumping the rubber ball every 5-10 seconds. The machine beeeped and it just stopped. My blood stopped flowing out !

The kind & friendly nurses came.. looked and played with the machine, and said thats all they can take out today. They removed the needle, wrapped my arm up..gave me a BIG yummy choc milkshake and a bagful of goodies with a YUMMY mars bar! hehee =)


I tried.....
anyone else that wants to try.. go to www.donateblood.com.au
its all for a good cause !!!

Dine Out

Nothing is better than having a nice quite dinner at a nice yummy restaurant with one of your best girlfriends! Starting off with yummy mussels from the Belgium Beer Cafe and topping it off with a belgium waffle with vanilla bean ice cream and strawberries =) YUM!

Having nice D & M talks ranging from work, studies, relationships to family and friends and lots of laughter ~
B - u know what i'm referring to ! hehee =)

It proves again that time flies when your having a great time. We didn't even realise we'd been talking for 3 hrs !! If it wasn't for the parking meter, I don't think we would of stopped talking! Thanks for a fantastic night! We should do it more often !!