An inch closer

My new journey began a few months ago when he knelt down and proposed to me with a huge diamond ring. I was both shocked and suprised. I couldn't believe things can happen so quickly.

I'm now sitting here, watching Gossip Girl S2 ep 16, crossing off things that need to be done from my "To Do" list. As I inch closer to more lines across words, it's starting to hit me. A big bang.

Excitement slowly creeps to me as I inch closer, as my invitations are nearly ready to be distributed, thank you to my dear friend K. As we slowly hand one by one out, I realise that there's not long to go.

Our first set of photos turned out really well, and i'm looking forward to taking our next set next month. I'm also looking forward to our first counselling session tonight. I hope it will be a useful learning session for us :)

Azuma

The green tea rolled cake was the BEST :)

Azuma's at Chifley is a must go again !!!

Dodgy Asians

As much as I am an asian myself, I have to say, there's some very dodgy asians out there.

I'm so fustrated but i'm sticking to my principles and i'm not budging one bit.

I don't care what people think and what people say. I am not going to do things against my own principles.. especially dodgy stuff :(

I feel sad, annoyed and pressured ...

Animal Communication

On Wednesday, Siw Bak ran away from our new place. I had searched from 2pm till 6pm running along the streets, knocking on every door, asking every single person that I crossed paths with, whether they have seen a little white dog. No one saw him.

We drove around the area, screaming his name until my voice had gone coarse. While I was driving, I was also looking on the road. My heart throbbed just thinking he may of been run over :(

We called the Hornsby Council, Parramatta City Council, all the vets in the area and all the dog pounds. Lucky Siw Bak is chipped, but then I was worried someone may have seen how cute he was and kept him.

At 6pm, we decided to take a rest and I logged onto MSN and that's when my cousin in Hong Kong messaged me. She said she can help me find Siw Bak because she knows animal communication and can talk to animals by looking at their eye. I sent her a picture of Siw Bak straight away and she communicated with him straight away.

She told me Siw Bak is very happy and he just wants to play. When he is hungry, he will come home. She said he knows his way home.

This is a letter that Siw Bak wrote to me that made me cry...




He drew a map to tell me where he was. This is the map.



I looked at the above map and I couldn't figure where it was... so I told my cousin to ask him to draw a clearer map. She told him I wanted to go to play with him and draw a clearer map of his location. This is the final map he drew.

I'm amazed because it's the first time I've ever heard of Animal Communication.
It's facinated me and i'm looking into learning more about it.

Here is my cousins website and a few drawings she's had with her beautiful poodle:
http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/mk_tsemaggie/article?mid=35258

And here's a link to where you can read more about Animal Communication.
http://rosina.wordpress.com/

My first experience with it and it's an eye opener. Makes me want to learn it too :)

At around 7pm, we started to search again. We ended up finding Siw Bak at 11pm on Pennant Hills Road. I am so glad we found him. I don't know what I would do if I lost him.

Feeling weird

It's suppose to be a happy feeling yet i'm not feeling the way I should be feeling.
I'm not used to the environment that i'm in now, yet i'm not sure how I should feel.
It's a weird kind of a feeling.

I'm soo HAPPY!! It took me ages to be able to learn how to put a photo as the background picture on my blog !! I finally found out how to do it !!! YAY!!

Bringing back 1994/1995

Over the weekend, I was doing some packing and I found my 1994/1995 diary entries. I started to read through it and it was quite funny.

My thinking was so simple back then. It seemed like my life revolved around what to bring for lunch, my mum and dad, who's my best friend at school, how long I was allowed to talk on the phone for, my curfews, which group to hang around with and the boys that surrounded me.

Reading back, I wasn't sure if I was to laugh or to cry.

I read back when I first dated my very first boyfriend. Somehow, he had a connection with some girls at Kalee's high school. When he and I broke up after 3 months, he called Kalee and told her off for telling me gossip about him. Apparently my reason back then for breaking up with him was that he called me to much and I was scared one day he would break up with me because he was too bored and we would have nothing to talk about.

Sitting there yesterday reading my diary was so funny. Coincidently, his surname was Yau.

I read about who to invite to my Year 10 formal, and the guys who I had crushes on, who had to ask another girl to call to say he couldn't be my partner. (This was a hot aussie dude who taught me Hap Ki Do). The dilemmas on who to choose and reasons why i'm choosing this guy and not another. I was bursting with giggles and tears.

I'm so glad that I've had a history of diary writing. It's these moments and we cherish and we smile at, and ones that we'll never forget :)

Relationship Sadness

About a month ago, I read in my friends blog about how she feels upset when she hears someone go through a tough time in their relationship.

These few days, i've been feeling a sadness for a very good friend of mine because of her relationship. The happiness, the sadness, all the crying and all the laughing. When I see their photos, I can feel genuine happiness but as everyone says, nothing is perfect.

I wonder whether it's not the right timing, or whether it's fate. Or perhaps they both haven't tried enough. In today's conversation with her, I brought up the topic that generally people take the easy way out and give up. Is that the way it's suppose to be?

I honestly don't know. All i'm wishing for is happiness to my friend who is very sad and i'm sure one day you will think back today and smile back at what you have been through with happy memories :)

30 & 21 days

I've recently turned 30, and when I think back, my 29th year of life has been somewhat interesting. I've learnt alot, climbed up another step in the corporate ladder, been in and out of a relationship and a big suprise just before my 30th birthday.

We've sold and bought a new house, had my first garage sale, which we ended up having to call the police because we were worried these guys who tried to rip us off was going to pour some deadly liquids onto our car, resulting in that night, our "for sale" sign being lit on fire. At 2am, the door bell was ringing non stop, a nice neigbour came to tell us, so at 2am, my brother and I were outside trying to hose down the fire.

I'm looking to move into a new environment, a new lifestyle and looking forward to lots of new experiences. Packing my belongings is tough. I still have my HSC texts books, my first year uni computer science text books and my Year 12 creative writing piece which i got 20/20 for my related english trials. Lots of old photos, lots of memories from previous relationships, handwritten letters and diaries. I also have about 5 money boxes full of gold coins. I didn't realise I had a money box collection, until now.

Going through my clothes is the hardest. Things i've put at the back of my wardrobe, each time I do a spring clean, I fold it back neatly into place and tuck it back in the back of my wardrobe. Funny enough, year by year, it just sits there, and every spring clean, I look at it, and think I may wear it one day. This time, i'm donating it. At least it's going somewhere where it will get better use than the back of my wardrobe.

I've packed 2 suitcases, plus 2 large red/white/blue bags. Suprisingly, I had a whole suitcase full of "home clothes". Would I ever wear that many home clothes?? haha.. I don't think so. So, i've taken it out and put it in a bag to donate as well :)

New start, new beginning, new clothes and a new home. My new home :)

Beautiful

Beautiful sunshine, beautiful company and beautiful food.

What else can I ask for ?

I've had a super fantastic weekend !!

Pain

I've been going through alot of pain and emotions in the last month. Lots and lots of thinking. It's not easy but the pain in very painful.

Will this pain ever go away??

A suprise

A very pleasant suprise. Today marks a beginning to a new journey :)

My home

Whenever I move houses, it feels like it's a beginning to a new journey. A house represents a warm, loving home. Security that no matter what happens in the outside world, that the people that live under the same roof as me love and care for me.

I have lived in this house for over 10 years and the start of my uni years. It feels like it has been so long ago, so when I sit here and think about what I have been through in the house, I miss it.
So many family and friends who have stayed over here. So many arguments and cries. So many laughs and giggles. So many parties and steam boat with friends. And lots and lots of baking.

I'm going to miss waking up, running to the bathroom for a shower, change, go in the study to put on my makeup. Having a big house lets me be able to put my things anywhere I want. I'm going to miss my "jacket" wardrobe in the study. I'll need to change my habits now :)

I'm no longer going to be able to take siw bak for a walk around the block and play in the doggy park. I'm no longer going to be able to run in the park behind my house. When I have a coffee craving, i'm no longer going to be able to walk 7 minutes and be able to go and grab a Gloria Jeans Coffee. When my best friend comes over, she can no longer park at my house and we walk down to grab lunch and coffee anymore.


I once questioned why my dad chose to move to this suburb. Now I know why :)

I'm missing this house alot already, yet, i'm looking forward to a change. A change that may bring me to a happier home, a better environment and possibly a bigger built - in wardrobe to put my personal belongings :)

Honestly..

If you ask me if I am ok, I can tell you i'm not. It's not easy and the decision was a very hard decision to make as well. My heart is filled with pain but I know that with time it will heal.

Memories of conversations make me cry when I am driving to work. The thoughts of our special hugs, our chats and our many chats over lovely dinners make me cry. The things we use to do to make each other laugh, and the things that we say to each other when we miss each other alot makes my eyes watery, and of course along with many other things.

One day we'll both think back and smile at these lovely moments.

I know things will get better. I'm thinking positive :)

A new experience

I went to a Taoist home for my first jim qwar experience. In the past, I've had one Tarot reading and one "Life" reading, of which I thought was very interesting. Today, I had my first jim qwar experience.

The home was very warm and the people there were exceptionally friendly. The Master was super nice and was very genuine. He talked to us like he was our friends and we had known each other for many years.

I never knew that there was so many different types of fortune reading. This one is different in that you ask the question you want to know the answer to, and the Master will help you answer your question. Without knowing anything about me, he was able to accurately tell me my present situation and analyse the pros and cons to what I want, and don't want to do.

I asked him 3 questions, all of which he helped me answer. It was really good.

The Master does things from the heart and doesn't expect anything in return. He doesn't force people to believe what he believes. He only wants people to go to his shop and be available for when people need help.

We spent 5 hours there and he also explained how Taoism started. He told me there was different Taoism cults and ways they try to get people into their religion and to stay away.

It was definitely an eye opener for me.

Strings

Imagine:

Lots of colourful strings. Red, pink, purple, green, blue, orange, white, black & brown.

All the strings crossing one another;

Equals the amount of things running around in my head, in all different directions.

When would it all go in a smooth line?

What it's all about

It's all about what I want and what is the best for me.

When it comes to the crunch in making a very important decision, I tend to neglect myself and consider my surroundings. It makes it quite hard to put my foot down. I think too much about how others would feel, how it would affect them, and what they want. I tend to neglect what I want and what makes me happy.

I've made some very important and crucial decisions in my life and I know there's along way to go. Life is full of decision making and changes. It can be as complex as to whether to keep a life support on someone who you dearly love, but know that they are suffering every day to as simple as what you want to eat for lunch.

As we get older, every day is changing. We as humans are changing. We need to adapt to change and deal with the risks involved.

Mr Chows at The Rocks

The second time in 1 month we've been to Mr Chows in The Rocks. The food never disappoints me. Always as yummy. I love it's salted egg prawns!! YUMMMM.

A day at Hunter Valley

A few friends decided to go to the Hunter for a day. We booked a nice lunch at Esca inside Bimbadgen Estate. The view from the restaurant was really nice. We were very thankful that the weather stayed clear for us while we were there. The weather kept rotating from sunshine to rain every 15-20 minutes we were driving up. We had lost count how many times it rotated :P

June 09

It's been a while since I've blogged. I realised nothing much has been happening and there hasn't been anything interesting to share. It's been quiet.

Works it's usual self, slightly busy due to EFY. I can't believe we're halfway through the year and when I ask myself what I have accomplished so far, not much.

There was so many things I wanted to do in the beginning of the year, but I've been so lazy that I haven't done anything. I've stopped going to the gym. The only thing that has been consistant is my rock climbing.

I've been very indecisive.

Since the beginning of the year, I've wanted to cut my hair. I still haven't.

My camera stopped working for a while, but it's temporarily working again. Looking for a new camera gives me a headache. There's so much to choose from, so many new gadgets, all these specs, I still haven't made up my mind.

My manager has asked me if I want to keep my work car, I still haven't decided.

I feel like i'm in the middle point of a "Y". How can I decide which way to go?