An inch closer

My new journey began a few months ago when he knelt down and proposed to me with a huge diamond ring. I was both shocked and suprised. I couldn't believe things can happen so quickly.

I'm now sitting here, watching Gossip Girl S2 ep 16, crossing off things that need to be done from my "To Do" list. As I inch closer to more lines across words, it's starting to hit me. A big bang.

Excitement slowly creeps to me as I inch closer, as my invitations are nearly ready to be distributed, thank you to my dear friend K. As we slowly hand one by one out, I realise that there's not long to go.

Our first set of photos turned out really well, and i'm looking forward to taking our next set next month. I'm also looking forward to our first counselling session tonight. I hope it will be a useful learning session for us :)

Azuma

The green tea rolled cake was the BEST :)

Azuma's at Chifley is a must go again !!!

Dodgy Asians

As much as I am an asian myself, I have to say, there's some very dodgy asians out there.

I'm so fustrated but i'm sticking to my principles and i'm not budging one bit.

I don't care what people think and what people say. I am not going to do things against my own principles.. especially dodgy stuff :(

I feel sad, annoyed and pressured ...

Animal Communication

On Wednesday, Siw Bak ran away from our new place. I had searched from 2pm till 6pm running along the streets, knocking on every door, asking every single person that I crossed paths with, whether they have seen a little white dog. No one saw him.

We drove around the area, screaming his name until my voice had gone coarse. While I was driving, I was also looking on the road. My heart throbbed just thinking he may of been run over :(

We called the Hornsby Council, Parramatta City Council, all the vets in the area and all the dog pounds. Lucky Siw Bak is chipped, but then I was worried someone may have seen how cute he was and kept him.

At 6pm, we decided to take a rest and I logged onto MSN and that's when my cousin in Hong Kong messaged me. She said she can help me find Siw Bak because she knows animal communication and can talk to animals by looking at their eye. I sent her a picture of Siw Bak straight away and she communicated with him straight away.

She told me Siw Bak is very happy and he just wants to play. When he is hungry, he will come home. She said he knows his way home.

This is a letter that Siw Bak wrote to me that made me cry...




He drew a map to tell me where he was. This is the map.



I looked at the above map and I couldn't figure where it was... so I told my cousin to ask him to draw a clearer map. She told him I wanted to go to play with him and draw a clearer map of his location. This is the final map he drew.

I'm amazed because it's the first time I've ever heard of Animal Communication.
It's facinated me and i'm looking into learning more about it.

Here is my cousins website and a few drawings she's had with her beautiful poodle:
http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/mk_tsemaggie/article?mid=35258

And here's a link to where you can read more about Animal Communication.
http://rosina.wordpress.com/

My first experience with it and it's an eye opener. Makes me want to learn it too :)

At around 7pm, we started to search again. We ended up finding Siw Bak at 11pm on Pennant Hills Road. I am so glad we found him. I don't know what I would do if I lost him.

Feeling weird

It's suppose to be a happy feeling yet i'm not feeling the way I should be feeling.
I'm not used to the environment that i'm in now, yet i'm not sure how I should feel.
It's a weird kind of a feeling.

I'm soo HAPPY!! It took me ages to be able to learn how to put a photo as the background picture on my blog !! I finally found out how to do it !!! YAY!!

Bringing back 1994/1995

Over the weekend, I was doing some packing and I found my 1994/1995 diary entries. I started to read through it and it was quite funny.

My thinking was so simple back then. It seemed like my life revolved around what to bring for lunch, my mum and dad, who's my best friend at school, how long I was allowed to talk on the phone for, my curfews, which group to hang around with and the boys that surrounded me.

Reading back, I wasn't sure if I was to laugh or to cry.

I read back when I first dated my very first boyfriend. Somehow, he had a connection with some girls at Kalee's high school. When he and I broke up after 3 months, he called Kalee and told her off for telling me gossip about him. Apparently my reason back then for breaking up with him was that he called me to much and I was scared one day he would break up with me because he was too bored and we would have nothing to talk about.

Sitting there yesterday reading my diary was so funny. Coincidently, his surname was Yau.

I read about who to invite to my Year 10 formal, and the guys who I had crushes on, who had to ask another girl to call to say he couldn't be my partner. (This was a hot aussie dude who taught me Hap Ki Do). The dilemmas on who to choose and reasons why i'm choosing this guy and not another. I was bursting with giggles and tears.

I'm so glad that I've had a history of diary writing. It's these moments and we cherish and we smile at, and ones that we'll never forget :)

Relationship Sadness

About a month ago, I read in my friends blog about how she feels upset when she hears someone go through a tough time in their relationship.

These few days, i've been feeling a sadness for a very good friend of mine because of her relationship. The happiness, the sadness, all the crying and all the laughing. When I see their photos, I can feel genuine happiness but as everyone says, nothing is perfect.

I wonder whether it's not the right timing, or whether it's fate. Or perhaps they both haven't tried enough. In today's conversation with her, I brought up the topic that generally people take the easy way out and give up. Is that the way it's suppose to be?

I honestly don't know. All i'm wishing for is happiness to my friend who is very sad and i'm sure one day you will think back today and smile back at what you have been through with happy memories :)

30 & 21 days

I've recently turned 30, and when I think back, my 29th year of life has been somewhat interesting. I've learnt alot, climbed up another step in the corporate ladder, been in and out of a relationship and a big suprise just before my 30th birthday.

We've sold and bought a new house, had my first garage sale, which we ended up having to call the police because we were worried these guys who tried to rip us off was going to pour some deadly liquids onto our car, resulting in that night, our "for sale" sign being lit on fire. At 2am, the door bell was ringing non stop, a nice neigbour came to tell us, so at 2am, my brother and I were outside trying to hose down the fire.

I'm looking to move into a new environment, a new lifestyle and looking forward to lots of new experiences. Packing my belongings is tough. I still have my HSC texts books, my first year uni computer science text books and my Year 12 creative writing piece which i got 20/20 for my related english trials. Lots of old photos, lots of memories from previous relationships, handwritten letters and diaries. I also have about 5 money boxes full of gold coins. I didn't realise I had a money box collection, until now.

Going through my clothes is the hardest. Things i've put at the back of my wardrobe, each time I do a spring clean, I fold it back neatly into place and tuck it back in the back of my wardrobe. Funny enough, year by year, it just sits there, and every spring clean, I look at it, and think I may wear it one day. This time, i'm donating it. At least it's going somewhere where it will get better use than the back of my wardrobe.

I've packed 2 suitcases, plus 2 large red/white/blue bags. Suprisingly, I had a whole suitcase full of "home clothes". Would I ever wear that many home clothes?? haha.. I don't think so. So, i've taken it out and put it in a bag to donate as well :)

New start, new beginning, new clothes and a new home. My new home :)

Beautiful

Beautiful sunshine, beautiful company and beautiful food.

What else can I ask for ?

I've had a super fantastic weekend !!

Pain

I've been going through alot of pain and emotions in the last month. Lots and lots of thinking. It's not easy but the pain in very painful.

Will this pain ever go away??

A suprise

A very pleasant suprise. Today marks a beginning to a new journey :)

My home

Whenever I move houses, it feels like it's a beginning to a new journey. A house represents a warm, loving home. Security that no matter what happens in the outside world, that the people that live under the same roof as me love and care for me.

I have lived in this house for over 10 years and the start of my uni years. It feels like it has been so long ago, so when I sit here and think about what I have been through in the house, I miss it.
So many family and friends who have stayed over here. So many arguments and cries. So many laughs and giggles. So many parties and steam boat with friends. And lots and lots of baking.

I'm going to miss waking up, running to the bathroom for a shower, change, go in the study to put on my makeup. Having a big house lets me be able to put my things anywhere I want. I'm going to miss my "jacket" wardrobe in the study. I'll need to change my habits now :)

I'm no longer going to be able to take siw bak for a walk around the block and play in the doggy park. I'm no longer going to be able to run in the park behind my house. When I have a coffee craving, i'm no longer going to be able to walk 7 minutes and be able to go and grab a Gloria Jeans Coffee. When my best friend comes over, she can no longer park at my house and we walk down to grab lunch and coffee anymore.


I once questioned why my dad chose to move to this suburb. Now I know why :)

I'm missing this house alot already, yet, i'm looking forward to a change. A change that may bring me to a happier home, a better environment and possibly a bigger built - in wardrobe to put my personal belongings :)

Honestly..

If you ask me if I am ok, I can tell you i'm not. It's not easy and the decision was a very hard decision to make as well. My heart is filled with pain but I know that with time it will heal.

Memories of conversations make me cry when I am driving to work. The thoughts of our special hugs, our chats and our many chats over lovely dinners make me cry. The things we use to do to make each other laugh, and the things that we say to each other when we miss each other alot makes my eyes watery, and of course along with many other things.

One day we'll both think back and smile at these lovely moments.

I know things will get better. I'm thinking positive :)

A new experience

I went to a Taoist home for my first jim qwar experience. In the past, I've had one Tarot reading and one "Life" reading, of which I thought was very interesting. Today, I had my first jim qwar experience.

The home was very warm and the people there were exceptionally friendly. The Master was super nice and was very genuine. He talked to us like he was our friends and we had known each other for many years.

I never knew that there was so many different types of fortune reading. This one is different in that you ask the question you want to know the answer to, and the Master will help you answer your question. Without knowing anything about me, he was able to accurately tell me my present situation and analyse the pros and cons to what I want, and don't want to do.

I asked him 3 questions, all of which he helped me answer. It was really good.

The Master does things from the heart and doesn't expect anything in return. He doesn't force people to believe what he believes. He only wants people to go to his shop and be available for when people need help.

We spent 5 hours there and he also explained how Taoism started. He told me there was different Taoism cults and ways they try to get people into their religion and to stay away.

It was definitely an eye opener for me.

Strings

Imagine:

Lots of colourful strings. Red, pink, purple, green, blue, orange, white, black & brown.

All the strings crossing one another;

Equals the amount of things running around in my head, in all different directions.

When would it all go in a smooth line?

What it's all about

It's all about what I want and what is the best for me.

When it comes to the crunch in making a very important decision, I tend to neglect myself and consider my surroundings. It makes it quite hard to put my foot down. I think too much about how others would feel, how it would affect them, and what they want. I tend to neglect what I want and what makes me happy.

I've made some very important and crucial decisions in my life and I know there's along way to go. Life is full of decision making and changes. It can be as complex as to whether to keep a life support on someone who you dearly love, but know that they are suffering every day to as simple as what you want to eat for lunch.

As we get older, every day is changing. We as humans are changing. We need to adapt to change and deal with the risks involved.

Mr Chows at The Rocks

The second time in 1 month we've been to Mr Chows in The Rocks. The food never disappoints me. Always as yummy. I love it's salted egg prawns!! YUMMMM.

A day at Hunter Valley

A few friends decided to go to the Hunter for a day. We booked a nice lunch at Esca inside Bimbadgen Estate. The view from the restaurant was really nice. We were very thankful that the weather stayed clear for us while we were there. The weather kept rotating from sunshine to rain every 15-20 minutes we were driving up. We had lost count how many times it rotated :P

June 09

It's been a while since I've blogged. I realised nothing much has been happening and there hasn't been anything interesting to share. It's been quiet.

Works it's usual self, slightly busy due to EFY. I can't believe we're halfway through the year and when I ask myself what I have accomplished so far, not much.

There was so many things I wanted to do in the beginning of the year, but I've been so lazy that I haven't done anything. I've stopped going to the gym. The only thing that has been consistant is my rock climbing.

I've been very indecisive.

Since the beginning of the year, I've wanted to cut my hair. I still haven't.

My camera stopped working for a while, but it's temporarily working again. Looking for a new camera gives me a headache. There's so much to choose from, so many new gadgets, all these specs, I still haven't made up my mind.

My manager has asked me if I want to keep my work car, I still haven't decided.

I feel like i'm in the middle point of a "Y". How can I decide which way to go?

Vivid @ Sydney

A lesson learnt

Part of my job is to build trust between my collegues. As with any trust, it takes time to build. With a certain middle aged collegue, I had to spend just abit more time, to prove to him i'm not full of crap, i'm capable to doing my job and deliver on my promises.

It's not hard for people to undeliver. One of the many things I always make sure I do, is deliver on the promises I make. If I don't have time, I'll honestly say I don't have time.

During the past 12 months of my job, I've worked very hard to build a good communication, trust and respect with my referring peers. I have tried very hard not to let them down.

This certain middle aged collegue, took alot of my time to build trust. He initially didn't trust me at all and he expressed his concerns with financial planners very openly. I didn't talk myself up to be on his good side, I just told him that I can prove to him that I am capable and I can successfully do my job. Talking is rubbish, actions will show for itself.

I managed to do that, which lead him to send me a referral of great opportunities. An opportunity to assist a department of our bank who were getting made redundant, because their role was moving to India.

What I did wrong was ask my boss for support, because instead of being supportive, he took the opportunity away from me and gave it to some other collegues in the city because apparently the city is too far for me.

Just because the City planners are not meeting their targets and not busy, it really doesn't mean he can do that.

Respect is one of the most important things to me, whether it's at work or my private life. He didn't ask whether it was ok with me, he just did it. It really annoyed the s**t out of me, made me really really fustrated. Mainly because i've also disappointed the certain middle aged man. He passed me the referral because he trusted me and he knew that I would talk to the clients with care. Now, it's going to be dealt with by staff he doesn't even know.

Thank goodness his 20 years plus in the bank and his 5 years working with my boss, he knows my boss better than I. Instead of me apologising to him, he actually called to comfort me, said he knew that I would be feeling bad and told me I don't need to apologise.

It shows that one, my efforts and my hard work is evident, and secondly, i've learnt to keep my mouth shut and deal with situation between my collegues rather than letting my boss know.
Not the usual way of doing things but maybe that will be better.

I've learnt my lesson.

Useless

I've never met a man more of a loser and he can be. I'm definitely not mentioning any names here BUT i'm sure some of you "might" be able to guess who he is.

So, this is what happened during a yumcha catch up with my girlfriend, her hubby, bb, A & I.

I got there first, sat down and got a table.

Girlfriend & family come. She sits down, says hi and sorts out her daughter. Her husband sit down and says nothing.

G: Have you said hi to Diana?

Hubby: silence...

a few mins later

G: Say jor hi mei ar ?

Hubby: a wave and a "hello" that you could barely hear

Then A who came about 10 minutes late appeared, sat down and said Hi to everyone. No response from Hubby.

G: Did you say hi to A ?

Hubby: huh?

G: Tong jor A say hi mei ar ? - a little impatient

Hubby: orh.. hello and a tincy little smile

Throughout the whole lunch, Hubby didn't talk. Just looked around and ate in silence. No expression. The type that even if you tickle him, he wouldn't smile.

Then later.. bb needs to go to the toilet. She looks at her baba and says "shoo shoo". Ba ba didn't react. He just sat there. Then she said it again, and he pushed her to her mum and said "She needs to go to the toilet". Not helpful at all, particularly since he wasn't doing anything at all, but after some nagging, and realising his daughter DID want him to take her to the toilet, he went very unwillingly.

Then, when we have finished lunch. My girlfriend forgot to bring a plastic bag to put her daughters dirty plates. She goes "hubby, can you ask for a plastic bag?" ... he looks around. No action.

5 mins later, "hubby, ask for a plastic bag will you?"

Hubby: Later sin... (but how later can you get when we've just paid the bill)

So I said to A, can you ask the waiters for a plastic bag. A waved his hand in the air, a waiter came in a spilt second and we got the plastic bag in 2 seconds. How hard was that ??

I said to my girlfriend "your hubby's pretty quiet and not very responsive, you talk to him like a baby" and her reply was simply "yeah, he is always like that. Even at home he is like that".

Boy.. I'm glad that my boyfriend isn't like that and I hope that my husband will not be like that either.

Counter Burger - Crows Nest

The burgers here are huge!!! It's fun because you get to choose your own toppings and add in abit of creativity with your burger. Personally, I find it abit too big. I like holding my burgers and biting it from top to bottom. Not a big fan of using a knife and fork to eat a burger.

However.. we ordered a Appie Pie Malt and it's divine!! It's sooo yummy and you can actually taste the appie pieces of an apple pie in it. If you don't go for the burgers (because it can end up being pretty pricey) definitely try their milkshakes.
If they added a touch of cinnamon, it would of been perfect, for me :)

Prayer to forgive those that hurt us

Almighty God,
You have listened patiently to my concerns and consoled me in times of hardship. Let me remember Your presence and love for me when I am called upon to forgive another person for an unkind word or action. You have shown me how to act, what to say, what to do, and yet I sometimes react in anger and find it difficult to forgive others as You so often have forgiven me. Grant that I may recognize this failing in myself and remember Your words and example whenever I have need of a forgiving spirit.
Amen

One Year.

Today marks our one year anniversary. I can't believe how quickly the year has gone. It doesn't seem that long ago when I met Roy at our friends birthday dinner. At that time, I had just come back from Hong Kong and still trying to catch up with old friends. Not expecting to meet anyone, but like people say, things happen unexpected.

For me, it doesn't seem that long, but when Roy and I talked about it today, he said it seems long because we've been through alot. I agreed... we have been through alot.

So back to today. Roy spent alot of time organising today. The day started off with these beautiful pink roses and tulips. I love roses and tulips. Then we headed off to Avenue Cafe for breakfast in Mosman. The cafe was really nice. Really yummy breakfast and really nice coffee.


After breakfast, we went to Zenzara for a 3 hour massage and facial. It was the first time we've had a hot stone massage. It was really good. Before the massage, we went into a rose spa. It was really really relaxing and our skin was super soft afterwards :)


It was such a lovely loving and relaxing day. After the massage, they provided us with a Japanese lunch. Tempura with rice. The serving was so big that Roy and I couldn't finish it but we ate as much as we could.

PRESENT TIME!!

This is from Roy to me :) **note the charms that is dangling** He is so sweet!


And a beanie from me to him to keep his head warm during cold winter months :)


and my first attempt in making Roy's favourite trifle dessert. A lemon trifle.

Today we both had a really nice day. Very sweet. very happy and very romantic :)

Thank you hunnie for making today so special and so memoriable!!

Match Making

It's the first time i've ever match made any of my friends. It wasn't "very" intentional as well.

What happened was:

A guy collegue asked me to join his farewell drinks at Priv one Friday night. He wanted to introduce some of his friends to me and insisted I must go - because it was his farewell.

I asked if I could bring along a few girlfriends to keep me company and of course, he said it was fine. I asked a few but only one could make it. Coincidently, one of her friends were going to be there on the same night too. And later in the night, we found out it was the same group of friends as my collegues.

So, the Friday night at Priv, under the super noisy and dark atmosphere, I introduced and they started chatting. I talked to my collegue (now ex collegue's) assistant while the 2 chatted.

After a few drinks, my girlfriend and I left for dinner. The others stayed on at Priv.

The next day, comments were:

"She is hot !! " and she was like "He's quite nice and outgoing"

They added each other on facebook. They started chatting on facebook, meeting up for lunch, meeting up after works for drinks, then having Saturday brunch, movies etc etc...

And today, I was told they are officially together. I'm so happy for them :)

I hope everything works out for them !!

Jervis Bay

I've been wanting to go to Jervis Bay for ages and I finally went this Easter long weekend. I've heard alot about the amazing white sand beach (Hyam Beach) and all the fun things that you can do there.

My friends often tell me how good places to go are and where to eat. I would always go and try but I would never set any expectations. If i do, I know I will be disappointed. I rather not set any expectations, enjoy and have a really great time, thinking it was wonderful.

I did the same with Jervis Bay. Many of my friends that have been have raved about how great it is. I've been looking forward to go for a long time. I wasn't disappointed. The beach was amazingly beautiful. The white sand was alot whiter than the sand in Sydney beaches, and alot softer. The perfect sunny weather helped of course but it was gorgeous.

Roy and I sat on the beach for a few hours in and out of the sun, just lying on our beach mats, snacking on chips and poppers, reading a book and chatting. We also jogged up and down the beach, watching dogs play in the water. It was truely relaxing.

We also went horseriding. It was my first remembering experience. It was great. I really enjoyed it. The 1 hour trail ride was really good. Sitting on the horse, bobbing up and down, looking up in the crystal blue sky, smelling hay and the greens from stems, looking at the stems and stalks of dry plants and feeling the warm of the sun was alot of fun, despite my nervous sweating hands holding on to the rope. I never thought that I would enjoy looking a dry long stem trees but it was nice. I'm glad I wore long pants and a long sleeve top, otherwise I would of gotten lots of scratches.

We stayed at a bed and breakfast which was really nice too. They had 4 rooms and the people there were quite nice. There, we met a lovely couple from Melbourne. It was a really nice and cosy environment. When we came home, we were greeted by other people who stayed. In the morning when we got up to go out to the kitchen for breakfast, we were greeted by "Good Morning" by the other guests there and have a quick chat about each others day plans. It felt very warm. The feeling was definitely not like staying in a hotel where you'd just ignore the guests and they ignore you.

The b&b was only a 3 min walk from the beach and they had good facilities. They had a chess board on the coffee table, and I was taught to play a game of chess. Lost, because I was cornered, but alot of fun :)

On one of the nights, we just stood outside, looking up the dark sky, looking at the glowing shining stars. There was so many. Like Roy said, a view that we wouldn't be able to get in Sydney.

The trip to Jervis Bay was really relaxing, very romantic, very memorable and alot of fun. Just what both Roy and I needed. A wonderful 3 day break.

Typhoon

Disappointed because I knew that problems and issues were coming my way soon. I didn't realise it would be this soon.

Expected was another month before a typhoon came my way. It's come alot sooner than expected. Maybe it's just better not to set any expectations and hope.

Pinky Restaurant

Roy and I went to Pink Salt in celebration of our 11 months. It was a really nice restaurant and the atmosphere was really relaxing. They had a pink menu, pink flowers, pink cushions and pink cloths on chairs. The food was pretty average, but we had a really good time. The lounges were really comfortable :)

Introducing Madeline

Today I went to Royal Hospital for Womens to visit Kalee and Madeline, Maddy.

Maddy is so cute :) She has alot of hair compared to when Penny was a baby. She has big eyes and pointy chin. They say she looks like Don, but I don't think so. Maybe another few more weeks and her features will be more defined.

Mummy & bub are well :)

Stupid theories

I don't believe in Saturns Return. I don't believe in mid life crisis. What you make of your life at 30 is what you've made of it. Why blame it on some myth from the past?

When people say that they've lost direction in their career, is it because they haven't planned it well enough in the past?

When they feel pressure from the workload at work, is it because they do not have good time management skills?

When they feel they don't have enough time for themselves, is it because they have not properly allocated time to themselves. Setting things to do every evening after work. Not prioritising what is important. What events you can say yes to and what events you can benefit from not going to? Just because someone asks you to go somewhere, or do something, doesn't mean you have to say yes.

Because of this non properly organising time, you've put on extra pressure on yourself.

Is spending 2-3 times a week with your partner too much to ask? Do you realise that how you are would affect your partner as well?

Why can't you just be like everyone else and be normal? Why can't you reduce your sporting activities so you would have more time to yourself?

Because you've jam packed yourself, you now realise you don't have time for yourself and want time out. Is this really the way it should be? I seriously don't think so.

These things can be fixed. It's a matter of whether you want to fix it or not. If you don't, this is just going to be a routine. A not good routine. I seriously hope you will do something about it.

Boring Fridays

Fridays are always such a bore!! I just sit here in the office wondering what I should do, even though I have a few files I need to fix and file away. Browing through smh, facebook, emails... surfing the net till I have nothing else to look up...

And with the gloomy weather, I just want to go home and sleep. Anything but work on my files.
Still have another 4 hours of struggle...

I now have something to look forward to when I go home from work.
I now have something that replaces my gym committments after work.
Even just sitting here, I wish I can go home to watch My Queen.
His smile is sooo sweet. I feel like I'm in high school again. Thinking of his smile, I smile too :)

“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”

Learn to love yourself

Make a List of Things you Like About Yourself
Sometimes we focus so much on what we’d like to change about ourselves that we actually forget there’s a lot to like as well. So take a few minutes and remind yourself of the positives you can be proud of. Think of physical attributes, mental or emotional strengths, successes you’ve experienced, the way you support your friends, or anything else. Make your list as long as possible, and then keep adding to it.

Ask Others to add to your List
Go to the people you trust—a friend, a romantic partner, a therapist, a family member—and ask them what they’d list as your most positive characteristics. You may be surprised to find out that people see a lot more of your strengths than you realize.

Treat yourself like a Best Friend
You know how you treat someone you really care about? The way you love and support that person and treat him or her with kindness and respect? Do that for yourself. And just as you’d challenge a close friend who’s making bad decisions with his or her life, challenge yourself as well. Just as you would for a good friend, remind yourself over and over again of your immense worth as an individual and that you deserve great things in your life.

Pay Attention to your Needs and Desires
This may sound a bit silly, but some people really don’t know what they want and need. They can go through their entire adult lives living only for others without stopping to ask the question “What do I want here?” or “What’s best for me?” One of the best ways to love yourself is simply to pay attention to what it is that you want and need—in your job, in your relationships, in your friendships, and in your whole life.

Listen to your Self-Talk
Repeatedly calling yourself an idiot or a loser is one of the least loving things you can do for yourself. So today, right now, commit to making your self-talk positive. Maybe take the list of things you like about yourself and repeat some of those attributes as you move through the day. When you do make a mistake, be generous with yourself, and instead of telling yourself how stupid you were to lose your keys, just say, “Oh, well. It happens. Everyone loses things from time to time.” As you talk to yourself, don’t say anything you wouldn’t say to someone else you love.

Take care of your Body
You don’t have to become a marathoner or a supermodel. But do your best to be healthy. Few of us eat exactly as we should or exercise as much as we ought to, so there’s no reason to beat yourself up over not being perfect. But taking small steps to take care of yourself physically is one of the best ways to show yourself love. By treating our bodies well, we send ourselves the message that we deserve good things.

Take Care of your Inner Life
Don’t neglect your spirit. Slow down from time to time and pay attention to what’s going on within yourself, where you’ll find all kinds of reserves to draw on when you need strength and support. Taking the time to pray, meditate, connect with others, and read meaningful books can nourish our love for ourselves and enrich our lives in many ways.

Show yourself Compassion
Be willing to forgive yourself, and be patient as you grow. All of us make mistakes, and we all have certain shortcomings that make it easy for us to get down on ourselves. But remind yourself that you’re only human. There’s no reason to expect perfection. When you make a mistake or notice something about yourself that you don’t like, don’t judge or harshly criticize yourself. Instead, be compassionate and remind yourself that you’re doing your best.

Live in the Now
This isn’t always easy to do, but one powerful way to love yourself is to focus your energy and attention on the present moment. Don’t dwell on the past, with all the painful regrets that might exist there. And let go of the future, with all its crippling concerns and anxieties. Then invest yourself in appreciating all the good in your life right now; pour yourself into the present moment and make the most of who you are right now.

Keep in mind that loving yourself isn’t selfish. Think of the heart, which pumps blood to itself first before sending blood out to the rest of the body.

When you get right down to it, love’s not a feeling, it’s a decision. So make a choice right now to love yourself and to work on loving yourself more fully day after day.

Blythe

Eating weekend :)

I had a very busy an stressful week at work this week. On top of that, felt abit dull but then the great weekend has made me feel jolly happy again :)

My eating weekend started on Thursday night when the climbing girls went out to Foveaux in Surry Hills for dinner. Yummy cocktails and a nice girly dinner :)

I had a clover leaf cocktail and it was yumm. I chose it because it had egg white in it. Good for the skin! Then we decided to have degustation. The degustation there was pretty average, a few pictures to show.

On Saturday night, we went to Ainoya in Kirribilli for Jap. It's a really nice restaurant.

These are there yummiest dishes

Then Saturday, we went to Andrews house for BBQ. He bought so much food :)

It was also Roy's first time chinese BBQing. Sooo yummy!! We were all so full.