Last night my wound started to bleed abit after having a shower. I rang up RPA and they asked me to go to emergency to have it checked out.
It's been a while since i've been to Emergency. Counting back, it's now 7 years.
The fears all came back and it felt like it only happened yesterday. I thought that I am alot stronger now but I still have that weak spot in my heart. As I walked into the emergency reception, my heart was beating.. I was staring at the ambulances, remembering that one night, 7 years ago when I was driving behind the ambulance. I felt like crying. I felt really sad. I felt so fragile and so weak, I just needed a great big hug to tell me everything is ok.
The hospital beds and seeing people with drips scare me. I don't dare to look at others. My eyes focused on myself, and the ground. I avoided eye contact with the other people.
I hope one day I can overcome this barrier.
Revolves around a sparkling world of small to big things that happen and love sharing the way I think with the people who are in my life. I believe laughter and eating yummy desserts is the best tool for stress relief.
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