It's when I have to make an important decision, that I wish that YOU were here to guide me in the right direction. Whether I should take this chance or not take it.
I was pretty sure that I wanted to go ahead and make this move, but today, after shedding tears while talking to my best friend K, when I finished talking to her, in the late afternoon and when I was taking a shower tonight, reading a friendster testimonial, and whilst I am typing this, I question myself, is this the right thing to do. I know I want to, I know I want to take this opportunity, I know it will work out. I know this is a great opportunity I don't want to miss.
I have asked many opinions from my mum, my brother, my relatives and my special friends. I've gotten too much advice thats made my mind run wild. I just want some quite time to think about what I want and whether this is the best thing for me.
I can already see my emotional fluctuations. This morning, i was excited, ready to pack my bags, tonight i dont want to leave. I want to stay here with my family and friends. In this house. In my room. With my car. With my furniture. I can already feel my emotions go up and down. I know I will be like this for the next couple of months. I have alot of questions that I have running in my head and the more ppl talk about this, the more pressure I feel I have. I feel like i'm strangled. I feel like I can't breathe. I do understand that it's because you all care for me and wish the best for me...but I think now, I need my space. I think that's what I need now.
Revolves around a sparkling world of small to big things that happen and love sharing the way I think with the people who are in my life. I believe laughter and eating yummy desserts is the best tool for stress relief.
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