Sunday, April 05, 2009
Pinky Restaurant
Roy and I went to Pink Salt in celebration of our 11 months. It was a really nice restaurant and the atmosphere was really relaxing. They had a pink menu, pink flowers, pink cushions and pink cloths on chairs. The food was pretty average, but we had a really good time. The lounges were really comfortable :)


Sunday, March 29, 2009
Introducing Madeline
Today I went to Royal Hospital for Womens to visit Kalee and Madeline, Maddy.
Maddy is so cute :) She has alot of hair compared to when Penny was a baby. She has big eyes and pointy chin. They say she looks like Don, but I don't think so. Maybe another few more weeks and her features will be more defined.
Mummy & bub are well :)

Maddy is so cute :) She has alot of hair compared to when Penny was a baby. She has big eyes and pointy chin. They say she looks like Don, but I don't think so. Maybe another few more weeks and her features will be more defined.
Mummy & bub are well :)
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Stupid theories
I don't believe in Saturns Return. I don't believe in mid life crisis. What you make of your life at 30 is what you've made of it. Why blame it on some myth from the past?
When people say that they've lost direction in their career, is it because they haven't planned it well enough in the past?
When they feel pressure from the workload at work, is it because they do not have good time management skills?
When they feel they don't have enough time for themselves, is it because they have not properly allocated time to themselves. Setting things to do every evening after work. Not prioritising what is important. What events you can say yes to and what events you can benefit from not going to? Just because someone asks you to go somewhere, or do something, doesn't mean you have to say yes.
Because of this non properly organising time, you've put on extra pressure on yourself.
Is spending 2-3 times a week with your partner too much to ask? Do you realise that how you are would affect your partner as well?
Why can't you just be like everyone else and be normal? Why can't you reduce your sporting activities so you would have more time to yourself?
Because you've jam packed yourself, you now realise you don't have time for yourself and want time out. Is this really the way it should be? I seriously don't think so.
These things can be fixed. It's a matter of whether you want to fix it or not. If you don't, this is just going to be a routine. A not good routine. I seriously hope you will do something about it.
When people say that they've lost direction in their career, is it because they haven't planned it well enough in the past?
When they feel pressure from the workload at work, is it because they do not have good time management skills?
When they feel they don't have enough time for themselves, is it because they have not properly allocated time to themselves. Setting things to do every evening after work. Not prioritising what is important. What events you can say yes to and what events you can benefit from not going to? Just because someone asks you to go somewhere, or do something, doesn't mean you have to say yes.
Because of this non properly organising time, you've put on extra pressure on yourself.
Is spending 2-3 times a week with your partner too much to ask? Do you realise that how you are would affect your partner as well?
Why can't you just be like everyone else and be normal? Why can't you reduce your sporting activities so you would have more time to yourself?
Because you've jam packed yourself, you now realise you don't have time for yourself and want time out. Is this really the way it should be? I seriously don't think so.
These things can be fixed. It's a matter of whether you want to fix it or not. If you don't, this is just going to be a routine. A not good routine. I seriously hope you will do something about it.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Boring Fridays
Fridays are always such a bore!! I just sit here in the office wondering what I should do, even though I have a few files I need to fix and file away. Browing through smh, facebook, emails... surfing the net till I have nothing else to look up...
And with the gloomy weather, I just want to go home and sleep. Anything but work on my files.
Still have another 4 hours of struggle...
I now have something to look forward to when I go home from work.
I now have something that replaces my gym committments after work.
Even just sitting here, I wish I can go home to watch My Queen.
His smile is sooo sweet. I feel like I'm in high school again. Thinking of his smile, I smile too :)
And with the gloomy weather, I just want to go home and sleep. Anything but work on my files.
Still have another 4 hours of struggle...
I now have something to look forward to when I go home from work.
I now have something that replaces my gym committments after work.
Even just sitting here, I wish I can go home to watch My Queen.
His smile is sooo sweet. I feel like I'm in high school again. Thinking of his smile, I smile too :)
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Learn to love yourself
Make a List of Things you Like About Yourself
Sometimes we focus so much on what we’d like to change about ourselves that we actually forget there’s a lot to like as well. So take a few minutes and remind yourself of the positives you can be proud of. Think of physical attributes, mental or emotional strengths, successes you’ve experienced, the way you support your friends, or anything else. Make your list as long as possible, and then keep adding to it.
Ask Others to add to your List
Go to the people you trust—a friend, a romantic partner, a therapist, a family member—and ask them what they’d list as your most positive characteristics. You may be surprised to find out that people see a lot more of your strengths than you realize.
Treat yourself like a Best Friend
You know how you treat someone you really care about? The way you love and support that person and treat him or her with kindness and respect? Do that for yourself. And just as you’d challenge a close friend who’s making bad decisions with his or her life, challenge yourself as well. Just as you would for a good friend, remind yourself over and over again of your immense worth as an individual and that you deserve great things in your life.
Pay Attention to your Needs and Desires
This may sound a bit silly, but some people really don’t know what they want and need. They can go through their entire adult lives living only for others without stopping to ask the question “What do I want here?” or “What’s best for me?” One of the best ways to love yourself is simply to pay attention to what it is that you want and need—in your job, in your relationships, in your friendships, and in your whole life.
Listen to your Self-Talk
Repeatedly calling yourself an idiot or a loser is one of the least loving things you can do for yourself. So today, right now, commit to making your self-talk positive. Maybe take the list of things you like about yourself and repeat some of those attributes as you move through the day. When you do make a mistake, be generous with yourself, and instead of telling yourself how stupid you were to lose your keys, just say, “Oh, well. It happens. Everyone loses things from time to time.” As you talk to yourself, don’t say anything you wouldn’t say to someone else you love.
Take care of your Body
You don’t have to become a marathoner or a supermodel. But do your best to be healthy. Few of us eat exactly as we should or exercise as much as we ought to, so there’s no reason to beat yourself up over not being perfect. But taking small steps to take care of yourself physically is one of the best ways to show yourself love. By treating our bodies well, we send ourselves the message that we deserve good things.
Take Care of your Inner Life
Don’t neglect your spirit. Slow down from time to time and pay attention to what’s going on within yourself, where you’ll find all kinds of reserves to draw on when you need strength and support. Taking the time to pray, meditate, connect with others, and read meaningful books can nourish our love for ourselves and enrich our lives in many ways.
Show yourself Compassion
Be willing to forgive yourself, and be patient as you grow. All of us make mistakes, and we all have certain shortcomings that make it easy for us to get down on ourselves. But remind yourself that you’re only human. There’s no reason to expect perfection. When you make a mistake or notice something about yourself that you don’t like, don’t judge or harshly criticize yourself. Instead, be compassionate and remind yourself that you’re doing your best.
Live in the Now
This isn’t always easy to do, but one powerful way to love yourself is to focus your energy and attention on the present moment. Don’t dwell on the past, with all the painful regrets that might exist there. And let go of the future, with all its crippling concerns and anxieties. Then invest yourself in appreciating all the good in your life right now; pour yourself into the present moment and make the most of who you are right now.
Keep in mind that loving yourself isn’t selfish. Think of the heart, which pumps blood to itself first before sending blood out to the rest of the body.
When you get right down to it, love’s not a feeling, it’s a decision. So make a choice right now to love yourself and to work on loving yourself more fully day after day.
Sometimes we focus so much on what we’d like to change about ourselves that we actually forget there’s a lot to like as well. So take a few minutes and remind yourself of the positives you can be proud of. Think of physical attributes, mental or emotional strengths, successes you’ve experienced, the way you support your friends, or anything else. Make your list as long as possible, and then keep adding to it.
Ask Others to add to your List
Go to the people you trust—a friend, a romantic partner, a therapist, a family member—and ask them what they’d list as your most positive characteristics. You may be surprised to find out that people see a lot more of your strengths than you realize.
Treat yourself like a Best Friend
You know how you treat someone you really care about? The way you love and support that person and treat him or her with kindness and respect? Do that for yourself. And just as you’d challenge a close friend who’s making bad decisions with his or her life, challenge yourself as well. Just as you would for a good friend, remind yourself over and over again of your immense worth as an individual and that you deserve great things in your life.
Pay Attention to your Needs and Desires
This may sound a bit silly, but some people really don’t know what they want and need. They can go through their entire adult lives living only for others without stopping to ask the question “What do I want here?” or “What’s best for me?” One of the best ways to love yourself is simply to pay attention to what it is that you want and need—in your job, in your relationships, in your friendships, and in your whole life.
Listen to your Self-Talk
Repeatedly calling yourself an idiot or a loser is one of the least loving things you can do for yourself. So today, right now, commit to making your self-talk positive. Maybe take the list of things you like about yourself and repeat some of those attributes as you move through the day. When you do make a mistake, be generous with yourself, and instead of telling yourself how stupid you were to lose your keys, just say, “Oh, well. It happens. Everyone loses things from time to time.” As you talk to yourself, don’t say anything you wouldn’t say to someone else you love.
Take care of your Body
You don’t have to become a marathoner or a supermodel. But do your best to be healthy. Few of us eat exactly as we should or exercise as much as we ought to, so there’s no reason to beat yourself up over not being perfect. But taking small steps to take care of yourself physically is one of the best ways to show yourself love. By treating our bodies well, we send ourselves the message that we deserve good things.
Take Care of your Inner Life
Don’t neglect your spirit. Slow down from time to time and pay attention to what’s going on within yourself, where you’ll find all kinds of reserves to draw on when you need strength and support. Taking the time to pray, meditate, connect with others, and read meaningful books can nourish our love for ourselves and enrich our lives in many ways.
Show yourself Compassion
Be willing to forgive yourself, and be patient as you grow. All of us make mistakes, and we all have certain shortcomings that make it easy for us to get down on ourselves. But remind yourself that you’re only human. There’s no reason to expect perfection. When you make a mistake or notice something about yourself that you don’t like, don’t judge or harshly criticize yourself. Instead, be compassionate and remind yourself that you’re doing your best.
Live in the Now
This isn’t always easy to do, but one powerful way to love yourself is to focus your energy and attention on the present moment. Don’t dwell on the past, with all the painful regrets that might exist there. And let go of the future, with all its crippling concerns and anxieties. Then invest yourself in appreciating all the good in your life right now; pour yourself into the present moment and make the most of who you are right now.
Keep in mind that loving yourself isn’t selfish. Think of the heart, which pumps blood to itself first before sending blood out to the rest of the body.
When you get right down to it, love’s not a feeling, it’s a decision. So make a choice right now to love yourself and to work on loving yourself more fully day after day.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Eating weekend :)
I had a very busy an stressful week at work this week. On top of that, felt abit dull but then the great weekend has made me feel jolly happy again :)
My eating weekend started on Thursday night when the climbing girls went out to Foveaux in Surry Hills for dinner. Yummy cocktails and a nice girly dinner :)
I had a clover leaf cocktail and it was yumm. I chose it because it had egg white in it. Good for the skin! Then we decided to have degustation. The degustation there was pretty average, a few pictures to show.




My eating weekend started on Thursday night when the climbing girls went out to Foveaux in Surry Hills for dinner. Yummy cocktails and a nice girly dinner :)
I had a clover leaf cocktail and it was yumm. I chose it because it had egg white in it. Good for the skin! Then we decided to have degustation. The degustation there was pretty average, a few pictures to show.
On Saturday night, we went to Ainoya in Kirribilli for Jap. It's a really nice restaurant.
These are there yummiest dishes



These are there yummiest dishes
Then Saturday, we went to Andrews house for BBQ. He bought so much food :)
Friday, March 20, 2009
Secrets
I feel awful today because I accidently slipped out someone else's secrets. I'm usually very good with keeping my friends secrets. I rarely, in very rare instances, do I accidently blurt out someones secrets. Today I did. I'm so sorry. I feel awful. I felt awful from the moment I said it -I realised I should of kept my mouth shut. I feel so so bad. Really bad. I feel like crying but I know it will do no good. Hope you'll forgive me.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Touched by Bec's entry
A dear girlfriend recently posted up a post which I felt touched. I strongly agree with her comments - giving freely to others, not expecting returns. But one day, when in need, the return comes unexpectedly and it's a magnificent feeling. That is how I feel, how I think and what I do - expressed in an even better way :)
http://tocca.blogspot.com/2009/03/helping-others-to-help-me.html
http://tocca.blogspot.com/2009/03/helping-others-to-help-me.html
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Sel - fish - ness
I have a hate for selfish people. People that live in this world, thinking the world revolves around them. No one else matters but them. All they think about is themselves. It's all about them.
Inconsiderate, selfish, self centred, I would say.
I meet so many people in my job, that it's quite easy to tell when one is selfish. I can tell who is greedy, who is stingy, who is lazy, who is hardworking, who "tries" to show that they are smart, in fact, they have no common sense at all, and those who are truely smart and talented. I tend to analyse and categorise people alot more than I used to.
I'm just fed up with people who thinks the world of themselves and think of no one else. Why are there such selfish people out there?
Pure selfishness.
Inconsiderate, selfish, self centred, I would say.
I meet so many people in my job, that it's quite easy to tell when one is selfish. I can tell who is greedy, who is stingy, who is lazy, who is hardworking, who "tries" to show that they are smart, in fact, they have no common sense at all, and those who are truely smart and talented. I tend to analyse and categorise people alot more than I used to.
I'm just fed up with people who thinks the world of themselves and think of no one else. Why are there such selfish people out there?
Pure selfishness.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Connection
My Latte is my precious baby.
For some reason, I can sense and feel when he is:
upset with something, or upset with me
happy
hungry
wants to play
or sick...
When he is not feeling well, I feel uneasy too.
The attachment is like two strings tied together. I don't think I can cope if I lost him.
For some reason, I can sense and feel when he is:
upset with something, or upset with me
happy
hungry
wants to play
or sick...
When he is not feeling well, I feel uneasy too.
The attachment is like two strings tied together. I don't think I can cope if I lost him.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Attempt 2 - because I miss blogging
In the last few weeks, I've realised that I really miss blogging. It's become a hobby of mine. Things have happened where I want to write, to vent out fustration, to share happiness, or just to talk about crap.
I didn't do as I thought I would - write in a journal. I looked back at how many pages I actually wrote - 1 page, no photos, and my handwriting is disgusting!!
It started of pretty and neat and as I write more, it got messy and ugly. I guess we're just being spoilt with doing everything on the computer and we just don't need to write as much on paper.
and also because of certain friends who's being asking about my blog - i've decided to re-open it.
Triple YAY for blogging again :)
I didn't do as I thought I would - write in a journal. I looked back at how many pages I actually wrote - 1 page, no photos, and my handwriting is disgusting!!
It started of pretty and neat and as I write more, it got messy and ugly. I guess we're just being spoilt with doing everything on the computer and we just don't need to write as much on paper.
and also because of certain friends who's being asking about my blog - i've decided to re-open it.
Triple YAY for blogging again :)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
The end of blogging
I've noticed my blog entries are not as regular as they used to be. I've sat down and thought about why and realised I don't have as much joy and excitement updating my blog anymore.
My blog was for me, was a stress relief. I love writing and sharing my thoughts, but I realised lately that i've been wanting to write but somethings been stopping me. Certain situations may involve certain people and my true inner feelings and now those certain people may be reading my blog. I realise I cannot post wholeheartedly anymore. I can't write what I truely want to write so I rather not write. I feel restricted to what I can and can't write. I've thought of protecting it by putting a password, but I feel that's quite pointless. .
I use my blog as a place to share my thoughts, update my family and friends around the world with what is going on with my life. However, now there's facebook :)
I used to keep a journal. I have many journals. I like journals because they are totally confidential. I can hide it where ever I want. Having my fun of blogging, i've now decided to resort back to a journal. During my blogging, i'm so used to posting pictures up. Now, i'm going to try a scrapbook journal. I'm going to print the photos and stick them on.
I'm going to delete my URL too, but I just thought i'd give you guys some notice before it's gone.
My blog was for me, was a stress relief. I love writing and sharing my thoughts, but I realised lately that i've been wanting to write but somethings been stopping me. Certain situations may involve certain people and my true inner feelings and now those certain people may be reading my blog. I realise I cannot post wholeheartedly anymore. I can't write what I truely want to write so I rather not write. I feel restricted to what I can and can't write. I've thought of protecting it by putting a password, but I feel that's quite pointless. .
I use my blog as a place to share my thoughts, update my family and friends around the world with what is going on with my life. However, now there's facebook :)
I used to keep a journal. I have many journals. I like journals because they are totally confidential. I can hide it where ever I want. Having my fun of blogging, i've now decided to resort back to a journal. During my blogging, i'm so used to posting pictures up. Now, i'm going to try a scrapbook journal. I'm going to print the photos and stick them on.
I'm going to delete my URL too, but I just thought i'd give you guys some notice before it's gone.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
I've been tested again
My patience has been tested again. I've always thought that i'm quite patient. My tolerance for patience is quite high. You'd be really really getting on my nerves for me to feel the way I do.
I often wonder whether it's good to have a really high level of tolerance. It just means that you can tolerate more crap from people and people can take advantage of you because they know that you're patient and they try to push you to your max?
Lately, I've often felt like being in an unopened bottle of Champagne. One that's been shaken and shaken, and when it pops, all the liquids come ooozing out.
Or perhaps a rubber band. One that has been pulled by bratty little kids. Pulled and stretched in every single direction. No longer the same size as it was before. It's now loose and shatty.
I often wonder whether it's good to have a really high level of tolerance. It just means that you can tolerate more crap from people and people can take advantage of you because they know that you're patient and they try to push you to your max?
Lately, I've often felt like being in an unopened bottle of Champagne. One that's been shaken and shaken, and when it pops, all the liquids come ooozing out.
Or perhaps a rubber band. One that has been pulled by bratty little kids. Pulled and stretched in every single direction. No longer the same size as it was before. It's now loose and shatty.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Saturn Return
I was listening to the radio this morning and a very interesting topic caught my attention. They were talking about Saturns Return and how it affects an individual.
A very interesting article I found describes Saturns Return:
Many of us approach our thirtieth birthdays with anxiety, even dread. We start looking for gray hairs and paying attention to ads for wrinkle creams. We question whether we are climbing the career ladder quickly enough. We hear the biological clock ticking loudly and worry that soon we will be too old to bear children.
For most of us, ending a phase of life that is familiar and embarking on one that is new and untried is unsettling, even painful. Few people describe Saturn Return as a pleasant period. While undergoing your Saturn Return you may find yourself turning inward and reflecting on your individual destiny. You examine your true needs and desires and the role you want to play on the world's stage. You may feel lonely and alienated from those around you, while family and friends think you are shutting them out. But this is a necessary period of consolidation, when you must retreat from the distractions of the outer world and focus on yourself at your most fundamental level. The Saturn Return is every individual's search for the Holy Grail.
The first Saturn Return marks the end of youth and the beginning of the productive adult years. It is now that you truly become an adult--not at eighteen or twenty-one. You realize your need to define yourself as an individual within society and to demonstrate what you've learned.
This transition into adulthood is often accompanied by a sense of urgency, a feeling that you must try to accomplish everything you've ever wanted or planned to do now. Goals start to come sharply into focus. If you have not settled into a definite career, or have been pursuing one that is inappropriate for you, you'll experience a strong push to establish yourself in a more fulfilling occupation. Sometimes this means a complete change. During his first Saturn Return Vincent Van Gogh decided to be a painter rather than a minister. More frequently it means a new direction or specialization within your chosen field.
Saturn strips away illusions and points out limitations, allowing you to view yourself in a harsh, often unflattering light. At the same time, it endows you with prudence, practicality, and the perseverance to work hard toward achieving your purposes. Consequently, this is a good time to rearrange your career or lay the foundation for a new one.
Saturn Return almost always requires some major adjustments in lifestyle, attitudes, and relationships. Anything you have outgrown, or have tolerated but not found satisfying, must end now or be altered to meet your emerging needs. According to Hand, "Consciously or unconsciously, you are pruning your life of everything that is not relevant to what you really are as a human being."
"Saturn. . . is never easy to deal with because his function is that of promoting growth," explains astrologer Liz Greene, author of Saturn: A New Look at an Old Devil, "and it is only frustration and pain which at present are sufficient goads to get a human being moving." This frustration and pain have given Saturn a bad reputation. But the planet's often misunderstood value lies in its very ability to evoke pain. Like the pain of an illness, it warns that something is wrong. Saturn doesn't create the problems, it merely illuminates them.
Growth is often accompanied by trepidation and turmoil. As the old self is pushed aside to make room for the new, you may feel weak and vulnerable. You want to move ahead, yet are frustrated by a fear of doing so, torn between a compelling urge to throw off everything connected with your past and an equally frantic need to cling to the familiar rather than brave the great unknown.
Even if your external world seems to be in order, your internal structure may feel as though it's being assaulted with a battering ram. Nervous conditions, irritability, depression, insomnia, and feelings of insecurity are common. Most people go through some sort of identity crisis.
Even though your Saturn Return may be disturbing, ultimately it reveals what you truly want and sweeps away the clutter that may have been impeding your progress. Your Saturn Return is a personal spring cleaning. No matter how difficult it seems to let go of inappropriate people and things, the first Saturn Return is the time to do it. For if lessons are not learned, the problems will come knocking again during your second Saturn Return at about age fifty-eight, when you are more set in your ways. Once the conflict is confronted, the tension usually subsides. You feel stronger and more capable of moving ahead.
Saturn Return is one of the most crucial turning points you ever experience, when you assume the greatest responsibility of all: responsibility for your own life.
Here are some tips to remember:
Don't give away your authority (literally authorship of your life).
Refuse to be ruled by guilt, fear or shame.
Remember that limits create freedom.
Give up your grudges.
Stay humble and use every grain of time to cultivate wisdom.
A very interesting article I found describes Saturns Return:
Many of us approach our thirtieth birthdays with anxiety, even dread. We start looking for gray hairs and paying attention to ads for wrinkle creams. We question whether we are climbing the career ladder quickly enough. We hear the biological clock ticking loudly and worry that soon we will be too old to bear children.
For most of us, ending a phase of life that is familiar and embarking on one that is new and untried is unsettling, even painful. Few people describe Saturn Return as a pleasant period. While undergoing your Saturn Return you may find yourself turning inward and reflecting on your individual destiny. You examine your true needs and desires and the role you want to play on the world's stage. You may feel lonely and alienated from those around you, while family and friends think you are shutting them out. But this is a necessary period of consolidation, when you must retreat from the distractions of the outer world and focus on yourself at your most fundamental level. The Saturn Return is every individual's search for the Holy Grail.
The first Saturn Return marks the end of youth and the beginning of the productive adult years. It is now that you truly become an adult--not at eighteen or twenty-one. You realize your need to define yourself as an individual within society and to demonstrate what you've learned.
This transition into adulthood is often accompanied by a sense of urgency, a feeling that you must try to accomplish everything you've ever wanted or planned to do now. Goals start to come sharply into focus. If you have not settled into a definite career, or have been pursuing one that is inappropriate for you, you'll experience a strong push to establish yourself in a more fulfilling occupation. Sometimes this means a complete change. During his first Saturn Return Vincent Van Gogh decided to be a painter rather than a minister. More frequently it means a new direction or specialization within your chosen field.
Saturn strips away illusions and points out limitations, allowing you to view yourself in a harsh, often unflattering light. At the same time, it endows you with prudence, practicality, and the perseverance to work hard toward achieving your purposes. Consequently, this is a good time to rearrange your career or lay the foundation for a new one.
Saturn Return almost always requires some major adjustments in lifestyle, attitudes, and relationships. Anything you have outgrown, or have tolerated but not found satisfying, must end now or be altered to meet your emerging needs. According to Hand, "Consciously or unconsciously, you are pruning your life of everything that is not relevant to what you really are as a human being."
"Saturn. . . is never easy to deal with because his function is that of promoting growth," explains astrologer Liz Greene, author of Saturn: A New Look at an Old Devil, "and it is only frustration and pain which at present are sufficient goads to get a human being moving." This frustration and pain have given Saturn a bad reputation. But the planet's often misunderstood value lies in its very ability to evoke pain. Like the pain of an illness, it warns that something is wrong. Saturn doesn't create the problems, it merely illuminates them.
Growth is often accompanied by trepidation and turmoil. As the old self is pushed aside to make room for the new, you may feel weak and vulnerable. You want to move ahead, yet are frustrated by a fear of doing so, torn between a compelling urge to throw off everything connected with your past and an equally frantic need to cling to the familiar rather than brave the great unknown.
Even if your external world seems to be in order, your internal structure may feel as though it's being assaulted with a battering ram. Nervous conditions, irritability, depression, insomnia, and feelings of insecurity are common. Most people go through some sort of identity crisis.
Even though your Saturn Return may be disturbing, ultimately it reveals what you truly want and sweeps away the clutter that may have been impeding your progress. Your Saturn Return is a personal spring cleaning. No matter how difficult it seems to let go of inappropriate people and things, the first Saturn Return is the time to do it. For if lessons are not learned, the problems will come knocking again during your second Saturn Return at about age fifty-eight, when you are more set in your ways. Once the conflict is confronted, the tension usually subsides. You feel stronger and more capable of moving ahead.
Saturn Return is one of the most crucial turning points you ever experience, when you assume the greatest responsibility of all: responsibility for your own life.
Here are some tips to remember:
Don't give away your authority (literally authorship of your life).
Refuse to be ruled by guilt, fear or shame.
Remember that limits create freedom.
Give up your grudges.
Stay humble and use every grain of time to cultivate wisdom.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
A wish
It's that time of the year again when I really wish you were here. I wish you can be here to see what is going on in each of our lifes. I know you are here with us, but I wish you were physically here. I wish you were here to meet our aunty, uncle and Amy from San Franciso who are here on a holiday. Today, I looked back at our last family holiday pictures in 2000. We went to LA, visited Universal Studios, Disneyland, Canada and San Franciso. It was the happiest holiday ever! We were so happy as a family and it's brought tears in my eyes.
The smiles in our photos are so happy. The photos of when you hug mum are so sweet. Photos with the four of us are gold. Precious moments of us with reunited with direct and extended family members are special.
I really really miss you.
The smiles in our photos are so happy. The photos of when you hug mum are so sweet. Photos with the four of us are gold. Precious moments of us with reunited with direct and extended family members are special.
I really really miss you.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Roll through it
Life is like a rollercoaster, can life be plain and simple?
Why do things appear so difficult?
Will I ever see light at the end of the tunnel?
Why do things appear so difficult?
Will I ever see light at the end of the tunnel?
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Dessert Suprise
Sean's Kitchen
In celebration for Roy's performance review at work, we decided to go to Sean's Kitchen. It's such a lovely restaurant :)
We had a really great & happy night. I can once again confirm nothing beats great company, lot's of laughter, smiles and great conversations.





After dinner, we spoilt ourselves by going for a massage. It was sooo good!!!
We had a really great & happy night. I can once again confirm nothing beats great company, lot's of laughter, smiles and great conversations.
After dinner, we spoilt ourselves by going for a massage. It was sooo good!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
What I will remember about 2008
0. My decision to move back from Hong Kong back home.
1. Going on a holiday to Taiwan with my mum and close family friends.
2. Meeting my boyfriend, Roy.
3. The start of my career with ANZ.
4. The ASX dropping over 50% in a year. What goes up, sometimes comes down.. and will eventually go up again!!
5. The global phenomenon of bank nationalisation - it happened all so quick!!
6. The Australian dollar dropping close to 40% in a matter of weeks!!
7. Being with Latte and being able to spend a full year with him.
8. Learning how to be patient (more patient than I already am) with work, relationships and family.
9. To be very forgiving in certain situations.
10. Looking at ANZ's restructuring and making over 800 people redundant.
11. Dealt with the MOST difficult, horrible, annoying, not understanding, not listening, un co-operative client ever. One of my collegues said that we usually only meet one of these clients in 5-6 years. I hope I don't get another one of these clients until then!!
12. I joined the gym - however, I have been extremely lazy in the last 2-3 months. I need to motivate myself, and YES!! It's going to be on the list of my New Year Resolutions!!
13. Tuesdays at rockclimbing - which is now a sport that Roy and I do, as well as Addy, who climbs abit later.
14. Plenty of new lovely restaurants i've been indulging myself to: Maitre Karl, Lucio's, Bilsons, Waqu, Criniti's.. the list goes on and on and on :)
mm... what else? Plenty more delightful memories but it's so hard to write each down every one of them down. Here's my top 10, with an extra 4 !! :)
1. Going on a holiday to Taiwan with my mum and close family friends.
2. Meeting my boyfriend, Roy.
3. The start of my career with ANZ.
4. The ASX dropping over 50% in a year. What goes up, sometimes comes down.. and will eventually go up again!!
5. The global phenomenon of bank nationalisation - it happened all so quick!!
6. The Australian dollar dropping close to 40% in a matter of weeks!!
7. Being with Latte and being able to spend a full year with him.
8. Learning how to be patient (more patient than I already am) with work, relationships and family.
9. To be very forgiving in certain situations.
10. Looking at ANZ's restructuring and making over 800 people redundant.
11. Dealt with the MOST difficult, horrible, annoying, not understanding, not listening, un co-operative client ever. One of my collegues said that we usually only meet one of these clients in 5-6 years. I hope I don't get another one of these clients until then!!
12. I joined the gym - however, I have been extremely lazy in the last 2-3 months. I need to motivate myself, and YES!! It's going to be on the list of my New Year Resolutions!!
13. Tuesdays at rockclimbing - which is now a sport that Roy and I do, as well as Addy, who climbs abit later.
14. Plenty of new lovely restaurants i've been indulging myself to: Maitre Karl, Lucio's, Bilsons, Waqu, Criniti's.. the list goes on and on and on :)
mm... what else? Plenty more delightful memories but it's so hard to write each down every one of them down. Here's my top 10, with an extra 4 !! :)
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Financial Crisis
This is the worst crisis i've seen and experienced. Today I was reading a newspaper article about ANZ cutting another 400 staff. In the past 2 weeks, I've seen 4 people in my team get made redundant. Senior to middle management level. 4 very extrememly hard working and loyal staff. Staff who has put their whole hearts into their jobs. Made sacrafices with their families for their jobs. Ones that have been with the bank for 20 or so years.
A good friend of mine in Private Bank have also been asked to leave in a very harsh and mean way. Another 3 people from Business Bank, who I speak to on a day to day basis, whether it's just a greeting when we're walking past each other, or bumping into each other in the kitchen, or just sitting around talking about our weekends.
In the past 5 months I've been at ANZ, I've met alot of very nice collegues. Collegues who I would like going to work to, seeing and chatting to. Smart, talented, cheerful and ones not afraid to share their successes and experiences. People who I can call "Quality". People who knows the ins and outs of the bank. People who are just one phone call away and can answer any questions I have within 5 seconds. It's very sad to hear that they need to leave. Seeing them in tears and packing their personal belongings and having work related items sent back into Martin Place through internal mail is a very heartbreaking experience.
I was told my position was safe, but I am curious. With certain merges that are happening within Business Bank, I'm curious as to how safe my job is. I guess I just need to keep my head down and just keep working.
A good friend of mine in Private Bank have also been asked to leave in a very harsh and mean way. Another 3 people from Business Bank, who I speak to on a day to day basis, whether it's just a greeting when we're walking past each other, or bumping into each other in the kitchen, or just sitting around talking about our weekends.
In the past 5 months I've been at ANZ, I've met alot of very nice collegues. Collegues who I would like going to work to, seeing and chatting to. Smart, talented, cheerful and ones not afraid to share their successes and experiences. People who I can call "Quality". People who knows the ins and outs of the bank. People who are just one phone call away and can answer any questions I have within 5 seconds. It's very sad to hear that they need to leave. Seeing them in tears and packing their personal belongings and having work related items sent back into Martin Place through internal mail is a very heartbreaking experience.
I was told my position was safe, but I am curious. With certain merges that are happening within Business Bank, I'm curious as to how safe my job is. I guess I just need to keep my head down and just keep working.
Monday, November 24, 2008
A moment of reflection
I've been slacking off blogging alot - facebook. It seems like i'm updating my most recent pics and what's going on in my life on facebook so i've been very lazy.
Last week was a very busy week for me. With lots of appointments, along with a new risk system training, our PD day, and our award and recognition night at Hilton (our early Christmas party).
In our PD day, there was lots to learn. One speaker that attended, which I felt was really really good is a guy who talked about success. He then flipped up a slide and told us to spend 5 mins to answer these questions and share it with the person next to you. It made me think...
Take a moment to have a think. You'd be suprised at what you come out with and happy that you spared that 5 mins just to have a think and jot some notes down.
What crossroads are you faced with at this point in time?
What promise am I prepared to make that constitutes a risk for me?
What price and I willing to pay to keep my committment... or fail in my committments?
What declaration of possibility can you make that has the power to inspire you, your collegues and your clients?
Last week was a very busy week for me. With lots of appointments, along with a new risk system training, our PD day, and our award and recognition night at Hilton (our early Christmas party).
In our PD day, there was lots to learn. One speaker that attended, which I felt was really really good is a guy who talked about success. He then flipped up a slide and told us to spend 5 mins to answer these questions and share it with the person next to you. It made me think...
Take a moment to have a think. You'd be suprised at what you come out with and happy that you spared that 5 mins just to have a think and jot some notes down.
What crossroads are you faced with at this point in time?
What promise am I prepared to make that constitutes a risk for me?
What price and I willing to pay to keep my committment... or fail in my committments?
What declaration of possibility can you make that has the power to inspire you, your collegues and your clients?
Sunday, November 09, 2008
好眼淚壞眼淚 good tears bad tears
A very touching and sad song..
我曾 認真 深愛著一個人 他給我幸福的可能
我等 我問 未來何時發生 他只是給我一個吻
快樂 我哭 是因為你的手 曾答應帶我向前走
難過 我哭 是因為我的手 找不到你說的以後
好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流 感動和悲傷都是理由
只不過 在你不再愛我了以後 剩壞的眼淚慢慢流
快樂 我哭 是因為我付出 得到你溫柔的答覆
難過 我哭 是因為我認輸 你的心永遠留不住
好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流 感動和悲傷都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之後 有好的眼淚慢慢流
好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流 感動和悲傷都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之後
有好的眼淚慢慢流 有好的笑容陪著我
我曾 認真 深愛著一個人 他給我幸福的可能
我等 我問 未來何時發生 他只是給我一個吻
快樂 我哭 是因為你的手 曾答應帶我向前走
難過 我哭 是因為我的手 找不到你說的以後
好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流 感動和悲傷都是理由
只不過 在你不再愛我了以後 剩壞的眼淚慢慢流
快樂 我哭 是因為我付出 得到你溫柔的答覆
難過 我哭 是因為我認輸 你的心永遠留不住
好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流 感動和悲傷都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之後 有好的眼淚慢慢流
好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流 感動和悲傷都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之後
有好的眼淚慢慢流 有好的笑容陪著我
Monday, October 06, 2008
Floriade long weekend
Roy and I went to the Floriade this weekend. It was very relaxing for the both of us.
Pink & Purple tulips is my favourite =)
Pink & Purple tulips is my favourite =)
This is my second favourite!!
hehe.. when we were leaving the Floriade to go and pick up our car..
With my favourite yellow tulips :-P
After we finished at the Floriade, we went to C & T's place to stay the night. T had planned to take us to a couple of different places and show Roy and I around Canberra. It was such a beautiful day. I like Canberra. There's so much greenery and the lakes are so pretty. I don't think I would mind living there =)
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Saturday@balmoral
Roy and I had a very happy day today. We went to Balmoral for lunch. We were starving when we got there. We ordered a fishermans basket to share. Took it away and ate along the beach but after we finished it, we still weren't full, so we went back to the Fish & Chip shop ordered a crumbed fish with chips. We were pretty much holding our tummy's when we finished it. ;P
Trying to be artistic..hehe


Trying to be artistic..hehe
After spending the day at Balmoral, we went back to my place. Took my car for a wash at a self - serve carwash up in Dural. Then came back, had dinner, and I did a facial for Roy, using my Jurlique Mask. Now his skin is super soft :)
Today was a super nice and relaxing day!!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Fly me to the moon



Last night, Roy and I went to watch the Imax movie "Fly me to the Moon". It's such a cute and funny movie, and a movie that will make me think twice when trying to kill or smack a fly :P
Recommended to watch: FLYMETOTHEMOON
I had a pretty stressful morning at work and watching it just made me laugh and relax and forget everything that's happened in the morning. =)
Thanks Hunnie ~
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
A little boo boo
Today was a very funny day =)
Roy had booked tickets to watch "Fly me to the Moon" at IMAX. I thought it was booked for today, the 16th. I told Roy it was for the 16th, and he put that into his calendar. Roy didn't check the date on the tickets, assumed it was today. When we got to IMAX for a 6pm movie, the guy at the counter told us it was for the 23rd, next Tuesday. We both couldn't stop smiling how we made such a boo boo hehe
We ended up sitting in Darling Harbour, chatting and watching the sky go from light to dark. From Darling Harbour, we walked to Argyle Hotel. It was a really nice and pleasant walk as well as building up our appetites for a yummy dinner.
It's the first time I've been to Argyle Hotel. It's very nice and cosy and has very comfy & relaxing lounges. We had dinner there and Roy recommended the 1kg pot of spicy chicken wings and their deep fried prawn ceasar salad. It was yummmm. The spicy chicken wings were freshly fried, crunchy, juicy and steaming hot.
The ceasar salad was yumm tooo ~ Great recommendations Roy =)
After our dinner, we had 3 options. Walk back to Sussex Street to pick up our car, bus it, or cab it. We decided to cab it, but we saw a bus, it dropped us off outside World Square, so we quickly jumped on the bus. It's the first time Roy and I caught the bus together. It felt like we were doing a tour of the city =)
It was such a great night !!
And yes, I did bring my camera this time, and yes, it was charged too :P
Roy had booked tickets to watch "Fly me to the Moon" at IMAX. I thought it was booked for today, the 16th. I told Roy it was for the 16th, and he put that into his calendar. Roy didn't check the date on the tickets, assumed it was today. When we got to IMAX for a 6pm movie, the guy at the counter told us it was for the 23rd, next Tuesday. We both couldn't stop smiling how we made such a boo boo hehe
We ended up sitting in Darling Harbour, chatting and watching the sky go from light to dark. From Darling Harbour, we walked to Argyle Hotel. It was a really nice and pleasant walk as well as building up our appetites for a yummy dinner.
It's the first time I've been to Argyle Hotel. It's very nice and cosy and has very comfy & relaxing lounges. We had dinner there and Roy recommended the 1kg pot of spicy chicken wings and their deep fried prawn ceasar salad. It was yummmm. The spicy chicken wings were freshly fried, crunchy, juicy and steaming hot.
The ceasar salad was yumm tooo ~ Great recommendations Roy =)
After our dinner, we had 3 options. Walk back to Sussex Street to pick up our car, bus it, or cab it. We decided to cab it, but we saw a bus, it dropped us off outside World Square, so we quickly jumped on the bus. It's the first time Roy and I caught the bus together. It felt like we were doing a tour of the city =)
It was such a great night !!
And yes, I did bring my camera this time, and yes, it was charged too :P
Our yummy prawn ceasar salad
mmh.. does this pot look like a mussell pot?? Abit misleading hey? hehe
Ta-da !!! Yummmmy chicken wings - Better than wicked wings, I'd say :P
Friday, September 05, 2008
Satisfaction
I had a meeting with my boss yesterday afternoon. I was very happy because:
1. He was very happy with my performance and praised me for my efforts.
2. He mentioned a possible promotion in March 09.
3. I have met my quarterly targets & in bonus territory now.
I feel a high level of satisfaction in my job.
I feel happy when I am able to help people with their finances.
I'm happy when I can help them protect themselves and their families.
I'm happy when I can help them with Estate Planning so it would give them a peace of mind that everything is under control.
I'm happy when I can help clients work towards achieving a desired target at retirement.
I'm happy when I help clients with their investments.
I'm happy when I can train and educate my staff to understand more about Financial Planning.
The greatest reward is getting praises from collegues who pass on their clients to me to meet, from my boss and most importantly, my own clients.
1. He was very happy with my performance and praised me for my efforts.
2. He mentioned a possible promotion in March 09.
3. I have met my quarterly targets & in bonus territory now.
I feel a high level of satisfaction in my job.
I feel happy when I am able to help people with their finances.
I'm happy when I can help them protect themselves and their families.
I'm happy when I can help them with Estate Planning so it would give them a peace of mind that everything is under control.
I'm happy when I can help clients work towards achieving a desired target at retirement.
I'm happy when I help clients with their investments.
I'm happy when I can train and educate my staff to understand more about Financial Planning.
The greatest reward is getting praises from collegues who pass on their clients to me to meet, from my boss and most importantly, my own clients.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
6 months back in Sydney
I was reminded by Roy that I haven't blogged in a while... and yes, it has been a couple of weeks. He suggested that perhaps I was happy, that's why I haven't blogged. When he first said that, I thought ".. no, I would blog when I'm happy.." but then I realised what he said was partly true.
I have been feeling quite happy lately. I've been back to Sydney for 6 months now. I've settled very well. Sometimes it feel's like I haven't left. I feel like i'm back into routine... back into climbing (with Roy climbing with me too!), i've joined the gym, which i've been trying my very best to go 2-3 times a week. Works very smooth **touchwood**, of course, it has it up and downs but generally it's very smooth.
Sometimes I do miss Hong Kong... miss it alot. I miss the eating and shopping and my friends there. Sometimes, I feel like going back , I miss my freedom and living on my own. But I know I won't. =)
I feel like i'm working hard and enjoying life at the same time. Going to movies, spending time with Roy, our families and friends. Going to see musicals, nice romantic dinners and watching plays.
On Saturday night, we watched Saturn's Return. A very nice play. Very different, yet very enjoyable. Roy booked dinner at The Wharf Restaurant. It was such a nice restaurant, that over looks the water and the harbour bridge. We had white wine mussells and salt and pepper squid. It was very nice!! We also had a passionfruit creme caramel, tangy and soury, and a chocolate hazelnut mud cake with ice cream. The mud cake was yumm..it was warm, and melted as it touched your tongue. Unfortunately, Roy forgot his camera, I remembered to bring mine, but it had no battery, so we didn't take any pics. I'll have to remember to keep my camera charged all the time =)
I have been feeling quite happy lately. I've been back to Sydney for 6 months now. I've settled very well. Sometimes it feel's like I haven't left. I feel like i'm back into routine... back into climbing (with Roy climbing with me too!), i've joined the gym, which i've been trying my very best to go 2-3 times a week. Works very smooth **touchwood**, of course, it has it up and downs but generally it's very smooth.
Sometimes I do miss Hong Kong... miss it alot. I miss the eating and shopping and my friends there. Sometimes, I feel like going back , I miss my freedom and living on my own. But I know I won't. =)
I feel like i'm working hard and enjoying life at the same time. Going to movies, spending time with Roy, our families and friends. Going to see musicals, nice romantic dinners and watching plays.
On Saturday night, we watched Saturn's Return. A very nice play. Very different, yet very enjoyable. Roy booked dinner at The Wharf Restaurant. It was such a nice restaurant, that over looks the water and the harbour bridge. We had white wine mussells and salt and pepper squid. It was very nice!! We also had a passionfruit creme caramel, tangy and soury, and a chocolate hazelnut mud cake with ice cream. The mud cake was yumm..it was warm, and melted as it touched your tongue. Unfortunately, Roy forgot his camera, I remembered to bring mine, but it had no battery, so we didn't take any pics. I'll have to remember to keep my camera charged all the time =)
Monday, August 11, 2008
Family Fun
Today is a super happy special day for me.
Today my mum, Mike & I went to the gym together at Fitness First. We went on the treadmill next to each other. Mike on one side of me and my mum on the other side. I was in the middle. The feeling of family happiness and family warmth, family togetherness made me feel so happy.
As my brother ran, I couldn't stop smiling. He would look over at me and smile and ask me what I was smiling at. For the whole 30 mins, I couldn't help but smile. I had a silly smile pasted on my face the whole time I was on the treadmill. hehe =)
Afterwards, we went for a sauna and we had the whole room to ourselves. Talking and laughing and sweating heaps. It was sooo much fun. =)
I wish we can do this more often!!!! I am super happy today!!
Today my mum, Mike & I went to the gym together at Fitness First. We went on the treadmill next to each other. Mike on one side of me and my mum on the other side. I was in the middle. The feeling of family happiness and family warmth, family togetherness made me feel so happy.
As my brother ran, I couldn't stop smiling. He would look over at me and smile and ask me what I was smiling at. For the whole 30 mins, I couldn't help but smile. I had a silly smile pasted on my face the whole time I was on the treadmill. hehe =)
Afterwards, we went for a sauna and we had the whole room to ourselves. Talking and laughing and sweating heaps. It was sooo much fun. =)
I wish we can do this more often!!!! I am super happy today!!
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Pineapples!!!
I LOVE PINEAPPLES!!!
But they are so hard to find!! I've been subtly looking for them everywhere I go. I remember loving them in highschool and early uni days but nowadays they seem so hard to find. I used to be able to get a big bag whenever I go to watch movies because they only sold them in the candy bar there. Now, they only have fake ones. You really need to be a fan to distinguish the difference between them. The fake ones are not "Allens" and are really plasticy.
Today I walked past a Candy store in Epping and found them. I was so happy and excited !!
These ones are real and when I was talking to the boss about the fake ones - he totally agreed with me. We were on the same level. We were on the same page.
He told me that there are suppliers who have approached him to sell the fake ones at a cheaper price but after he tasted them, he felt it tasted like plastic. EXACTLY the same as me!! =)
Nothing beats real pineapples. They are just too good =)

But they are so hard to find!! I've been subtly looking for them everywhere I go. I remember loving them in highschool and early uni days but nowadays they seem so hard to find. I used to be able to get a big bag whenever I go to watch movies because they only sold them in the candy bar there. Now, they only have fake ones. You really need to be a fan to distinguish the difference between them. The fake ones are not "Allens" and are really plasticy.
Today I walked past a Candy store in Epping and found them. I was so happy and excited !!
These ones are real and when I was talking to the boss about the fake ones - he totally agreed with me. We were on the same level. We were on the same page.
He told me that there are suppliers who have approached him to sell the fake ones at a cheaper price but after he tasted them, he felt it tasted like plastic. EXACTLY the same as me!! =)
Nothing beats real pineapples. They are just too good =)
Phantom of the Opera
Roy and I went to watch Phantom of the Opera. We watched an 8pm session on 8/8/08. The show was fantastic and we both enjoyed it alot.
Before the show, we went to Pyrmont's Steak & Seafood Restaurant for dinner, which is just above the Lyric Theatre. I had a salmon, Roy had chicken and we both had a mango mousse dessert. YUMMM =)



It was a really really great night. =)
Before the show, we went to Pyrmont's Steak & Seafood Restaurant for dinner, which is just above the Lyric Theatre. I had a salmon, Roy had chicken and we both had a mango mousse dessert. YUMMM =)
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